princess day

i love you, daddy mommy! you make me a wonderful princess today!
i celebrated my early birthday today with surprise!
went to my favourite restaurant at Terminal! weeee!
my aunts and uncles and cousins were all there
though they are a bit of late reaching there.
dad ordered all nice foods ^^
and is all my favourite!! weeee!
and well, everyone's tummy were so full with nice foods (:
mommy bought me my favourite green tea cake!!
* im loving it *
they sang birthday song for me there
and i feel like im a perfectly happy lovely princess ^_^
well, first time having my birthday celebration with my korean cousin.
she's so pretty than in the photo.
she makes a pretty nice necklace for me.
had the most memorable sweetest birthday celebration. weee!

and in memory of today,
thanks Alvis for giving me such great early birthday celebration on today last year.
he's always my greatest leader!!

thanks daddy mommy for the surprises^^
thanks all my lovely family members who came celebrated with me
and the presents and making my day so sweet memorable and wonderful^^

mommy took that on the way to Terminal

mommy say this princess look so happy ^^

raez and suji aka my korean cousin

my favourite green tea cake (:

raez and hong aka my cutie pie

raez and the lovely cake with cutie pie ^_^

ermm.. suji took that =/

argh.. the nice necklace my lovely korean cousin suji made for me. *thanks* *heart*

ooppss.. i realise i forgot to take a group photo =/
well, some photo not with me.. will upload more when i get 'em all..

lovely family

ohh nooooo!
i just can't wait for tomorrow!!
well, my birthday is coming so soon (: and my daddy and mommy invited my aunts and uncles celebrating an early birthday for me tomorrow night at my favourite restaurant! my korean cousin will be there too. is like my first time celebrating my birthday with her.
im getting so exciting and im not able to sleep. hehhe..
so i think im gonna be the shutterbug tomorrow. weeee!
i love you, daddy & mommy. you are great!!
~ loving family ~

hope or disappointment

hope or disappointment?
i do not know..
do they hafta?
is that a must of doing so?
comparative and calculative
because they pro!
as words continue,
am thinking of this -
why everything about money?
is that a must to be calculative?
if you really wants to help,
do you hafta calculate with money?
is that the rule?
that can be so cruel
even i know that
it is quite fair to some..
im kinda wonder
with what you pros said
and i would really wants to ask..
are you sure you wants to help?
or it is because of money?
izit money only can deal with it?
well.. is that a hope?
or is a disappointment?

disappointing moment

so disappointed..
from what i heard just now.
didn't know it is just so complicated
and make things can be in trouble??!
it has a little bad impression for me now
and im kinda regret how i told my friend that's not true
so i guess im wrong now...
that is all what i don't hope and don't expect to see!
and well, i think im gonna disappoint my members now..
prideful and complicated
that makes me feel so uncomfortable with it
i have got no others choice
since i make things so happening
im wrong and im really wrong!
now i realize the truth...

cheerleading

as if u read my previous post, you'll know that im kinda suffering for my school cheerleading. well, chatted with Sam and Kelvin Loh and things work better. as for Sam, he's trying to work things out. he's trying best to find his transport to my school to coach us or if not he's finding his friend to coach us. that's great! how glad.. *heart dear* so im kinda stress release abit. ohh, having open day for cheerleading in my school like in 2weeks later. well, Kelvin might be coming to help and teaching some basics. greatest is that he's arranging his time to come over and he at least abit well known my school area. so is like easier for me to bring him to my school. *appreciate*
i do chat with Rachel Ng by sending messages in fs. she's giving me lotsa ideas and tips on leading a cheerleading in school since it is new! and kinda encouraged by her words as well. she's helpful and im kinda admire her passion for cheerleading. that struck me! *thanks*
had meeting with my people.. assist.. admin etc about our planning.. talking bout our open day and uniform.. so it seems there's a way out now.. and im not so lost since i got a really great assistant and admin.. not much to worry though.. thanks Celine and Marilyn :) *heart you both*
my admin typing out a letter for hm to approval.. hhmmm.. we can't do much except waiting for the letter to be approve and maybe we will update our hm more information bout that..
thanks girls (: and thanks those whose name i mention above. love ya people..

thanks dear (:

im really really emo!!
i was crying at the same time chatting with sam
sam do not make me cry
just i feel im really that useless
im not qualified to be a cheerleader what else more a captain?
it is hard to find a coach to teach..
uniform.. t-shirt.. all haven't done yet..
though in words im not able to express much to sam..
but im crying
seriously.
and by the way he do makes me smile...
so as i said..
sam always makes me smile when i cry
and makes my cry when i laugh (as in i laugh till tears drop) lolx.
his words always struck me and im encouraged by him..
ermm.. feeling abit better after throwing everything to him..
and he wil makes me smile again >.<

p/s : thanks dear :) u're great all the times whenever i need u..

tagged by sam

argh.. tagged by sam =/ anyway, here goes....

1. Who is your all time inspiration?
erm.. it change all times when reach different level of life..

2. Have you had a crush on me?
hahha.. at the moment no? future who knows? >.<

3. If you were to be stranted on a deserted island,who are the 3 blogging buddies you would take with you?Why?
sam , kc , shuen >>> chocx!

4. Where is the place you wanna go to the most?
singapore and aussie!! weee!

5. If you have only one wish to come true,what would it be?
to be with sumone im in love now..

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
sometimes..

7. What are you afraid to lose now the most?
both my really dearest dears

8. If you win 1$,what would you do?
depends on situation. lolx.

9. If you meet someone you love,would you confess it to him or her?
it depends on situation and status.. yeapzz..

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
caring , outrageous , lovely

11. What are the requirements that you wish for your other half?
holy , trustworthy , caring , understanding

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
backstabbers , bitches

13. Highlight of the week.
C3

14. If you have faults,would you rather the people around you point it out to you or you rather they keep quiet?
let them point it out if they wanna.. but i will still admit it at least i won't feel guilty..

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
God and family. never change.

16. Are you a shopaholic?
yesh when my bro pay me..

17. What's on your mind right now?
cheerleading' thingy

18. If you have a chance,which part of your character would you like to change?
my eating habbits.. wanna on diet!!

19. What's the last shocking thing that you see or heard?
nope.. except affections on my skin allergy..

20. What's bothering you lately?
my exam and my cheerleading thingy..

i tag.... ermm...
* kc
* mich my sweetest sis
* elicia the nuttz

raez | sick

RAEZ fall SICK
can't go to school
=.="

HATE TAKING MEDI!!!
IT'S SUCKX!!

EMO

so emo!!!!!!!! i'd been emo from this morning till now..
as you know, championship today! supposed my friend promise to go with me but last minute she told me that she got sumthing else to do and not able to make it. what the?!??!! ffk again!! that's like too last minute okie.. and some my others friends went dy.. darn!
from that moment onwards im emo till this point when im typing on this post.
i wonder how everything goes..
this may be my last time going for such thingy.. and most probably i can't go for cheer 2008(exams!!) next year i may not be in m'sia dy.. argh gosh! im kinda lost such great chance to go today =/
how i hope i can have my license now so that i can drive there without waiting for anyone's answer.. somehow i can still fetch my friends along.. too bad i have my babe but i can't drive it..
really really hope i can have my license now so i don't hafta think so much.. can go wherever places i wanna..
but i still gotta suckx for another 3months >.<

EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO
=.=" >.< =/ ): =.= -.- =( T.T

student Easter service

went cineleisure with syee this afternoon. and well, supported CHARM. and erm... unluckily we caught by some people. guess what? they ask us to join some ribena "the perfect match" contest. and requested us to hold the ribena newest flavor bottles and took a photo of us. and?? join the contest =.=" kinda demanding but fine.. photo taken.. just for fun.. the pic is ugly and i looks fat in that pic. so people if u free, can go vote for me and syee at www.ribena.com.my on 26th march onwards. =/
went elianto bought eye liner and lip gloss. and syee bought her lips treatment sumthing.. then we rush to church for student Easter service.
is our first time having student service so far. we make a history! and it is great!! is a new beginning of we start a student service. keep on, church!!
there's performance bout easter.. 2 person accepted Christ. weee! somehow is like some normal services.. so after all everyone taking photos there.. and went for dinner with syee and her groups..
so im kinda tired..
argh no!!! it's tomorrow!! i wanna go cineleisure for championship but im still wondering who wanna go and... transport!! *sob sob* so tonight i gotta pray damn hard and hoping that i able to go tomorrow. =/
urgh! im lazy to blog larh..

today will be my happy day??

i woke up late today!! since yesterday was good friday and church having services and i went.. im back home kinda late cause going supper after that. lolx. and so i slept late yesterday night.. hahha..
first thing i do when i wake up is to check mails and messages.. and start busy replying all (:
argh... syee coming to fetch me like in 2hours later and we going to the cineleisure.. supposed bringing my members there but erm... i can't wake this morning so they went themselves.. lolx.
*sorry girls*
by the way, championship tomorrow!! i hope i can go.. just i need transport..
"who wants to go please come look for me" ahem*
whether im going not, all the best to my dear and the team.. weeee!!
ohh, student easter service tonight! can't wait for that dy.. 1st time we having student easter service.. and i wonder how it could be.. hhmmm..
so i think i should go...... eat? shower? find my most suit outfit? make up?? and ciaoz...
lolx.
alright alright.. update you people bout my day tonight..

im tagged so i just do it

001.Real name: Rachel Pang Poh Yee(i almost forgot i got a chinese name)
002.Nickname: raerae, raez, 'da jie', ketua/leader =.="
003. Married: NO..
004.Male or female: i got ass and boobs so what u think?
005.High school: SMK SB (suckx!)
006.College: next year will be..
007.Short or long hair: is bout to reach my butt so?
008.Are you a healthy freak: not really..
009.Height : 161 (im so short!!)
010.Do you have a crush on someone: i guess so..
011.Do you like yourself : not really. lolx.
012.Piercings: 3 on right and 1 on left (going to add on another 1)
013.Righty or lefty: righty

First*

014.Surgery: argh.. can't remember larh.. when im a kids. lolx
015.Piercing: 2 when std3 , 1 when f4 and 1 when f5
016.Person you see in the morning: me myself and i
017.Award: last month
018.Sport you join : swimming
019.Pet: i don't but my family members do.. =.="
020.Vacation: singapore 3months ago
021.Concert : i don't go concert except im on duty ( a dancer)
022.First crush : shhhhh..

currently:

023.Eating : ferrero rocher!!
024.Drinking: nothing
025.I'm about to : go to church for worship revival night and good friday service

Your Future*

026.Want kids: a son and a daughter (more than enough)
027.Want to get married: if i meet my mr. right
028.Careers in mind: no idea.. sumthing bout events maybe??

Which one is better*

029.Lips or eyes: erm.. lips..
030.Hugs or kisses: hugxx
031.Shorter or taller:nahh, of course taller..
032.Romantic or spontaneous: romantic??!?
033.Sensitive or loud: erm.. load?
034.Trouble maker or hesitant: trouble maker doesn't matter

Have you ever*

035.Kissed a stranger: nahh.. no..
036.Drank bubbles: what? bubbles??
037.Lost glasses/contacts: i throw it i don't lost
038.Ran away from home: i think no..
039.Liked someone younger: nehh..
040.Liked someone older: yeapzz
041.Broken someone's heart: quite sometimes
042.Been arrested : no no..
043.Cried when someone died : if not??
044.Liked a friend: yeapzz

Do you believe in*

045.Yourself: sumtimes =.="
046.Miracles: God makes miracles!!
047.Heaven: yeappzz
048.Santa Claus: believe when im a kids..
049.Magics: tricks!
050.Angels: yeapzz

Answer Truthfully*

051.Is there one person you want to be right now: sam? lolx. (he makes me laugh when i cry and he makes me cry when i laugh) =.="
052.Do you believe in God: yeapzz
053.Tag 5 people:

- dear sam ( do it again ;p)
- kc
- krystyle
- elicia
- ken

what a history exam

early in the morning before i leave my house and wait for caryn, i took that short 15mins to review back my notes since im still early. ohh well, it brought back a lil memories of what i had studied yesterday. good news? (wait till the last part)
so during the short assembly time, i continue reading on my notes(hardworking huh?) and what? i slowly remember some points. lolx.
after enter the class we arrange our table again(is like a fight with the afternoon class students). for your information, my exam always never start on time. so somehow like some tradition..
ahaa.. guess what when i look at the questions? gosh! none of the question i know how to do and by the way it seems like what i'd studied all never comes out. darn! im stunning looking at the questions =.=" i tell you what, it suckx! when i look at friends around me, no one holding pen but lying on the table sleeping or day dreaming there.only a very small amount of them trying their hard to answer the questions(not more than 5 of them)
i look through the questions again and again hope there at least some questions i know. well, i answer few..
people around may thought i know how to answer all since i keep on writing on my text pad paper. alright, as you know i haven't finish writing my report so i do it at the mean time rather than waisting my time sleeping. at the end i able finish writing my report at the mean time so what im gonna do next is to type everything i'd written into my laptop and save in the thumb drive when i reach home. and then i can sleep on my lovely bed. hahha.
hhmmm.. i know im bad.. but what? i have no idea how to do all that questions and don't wanna waist day dreaming there.. so? continue to do my report!! weee! =.=||
p/s : dear, sorry for disappointing you bout it..
as elicia said, i got a good imaginary brain. to keep you update im currently creating a new dance with my friends as we invited by our studio branches in JB to go over there for some roadshow. so im gonna figure out some part and start edit and mix the songs we'd chose. well, while writing reports at the same time the whole dance keep fleshing out and i able to see the whole dance result we created with the songs together playing in my mind.
so i can use my brain for 2 different things at the same time? kinda extra ordinary huh? ;p whatever. im used to it. lolx. luckily i do not tap my legs and shake my body and head. that's weird dy..
okie, some of the part im not able to do it.. can't expect me to bring all documents and datas there right? what else more my laptop. lolx. *funny*
so.. that's what i did during my exam;p

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im a night cat??

ahaa.. it's 12am now and im still awake!!
sum up i had spent 5hours lidat on my f4 history notes or whatever can be.. exam going 8hours later!!
5hours of study seems lots for me but i get nothing at the end.. i can't even remember a point ): i read and i forgot again.. >.<
can't expect me to remember all in once right.. so im thinking of how am i gonna 'die' then..
hope when i look at the questions some memories will flash back so i can answer the questions? ohh well, it sounds abit like mAgIc i know.. lolx..
well well well well... my mind really need rest and relax right now ohh yeahh.. seriously, im gonna go insane(i can't remember how many times i mentioned. can u?) hahha..
just finish half of my reports and gotta pass up this saturday. and peoples as you dunno, it's not for my school okie?? it's a part of my job yea.. okie, stop thinking too much of what reports im doing wei..
so out of exams, trainings, practices, dance classes, tuitions??? yeah, outta all of that, i realized im kinda free! weee! FREE!
life is getting happier and people who knows im kinda stress free now.. no burdens and worries.. so you should be happy for me right? so watcha waiting? come say CONGRATS to me! lolx (:
so it may be a good news for few of my listeners (great listeners i had there) and bad it is because seldom i will go look for u? aiyaa.. will i still look for u for fun, not worries ;) okie, maybe yam cha k? great?
think i gotta go sleep since i woke up like darn early today.. update tomorrow again?

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public holiday is not a holiday??!!

as for you know, today is a public holiday. and yeahh.. but i don't.. hahha.. my school is off of course! my training never off. lolx.
early in the morning i wake around 5am get ready everything my coach came fetch me for training. so we reach shah alam around 6 15am. ohh, we are 15mins early! ahem* ohh well.. we did some warm up and started our training. as u know, next week is my competition. so im thinking of a better way to "die". alright. and after that my coach fetch me to sunway and i had my dance class.
so my half day gone lidat. o.O!
is about 11am++ and went breakfast with parents in KL. then i went shopping with bro. hahha. bought lotsa stuffs *bro the greatest!* so i think im gonna get fat sooner since bought lots junk foods and chocx T.T fine! do more exercise! weee!
so after back home, i start sitting in front of my computer and with my laptop by side.. guess what?? start updating songs in my phone and ipod. and start edit songs for ringtones. hehhe..
and nahh, start updating my blogs! so is about an hour left for me to get ready and going for dinner. hhmmm.. how i hope to stay at home for dinner. at least i can watch tv at the same time! lolx. anyway, think that's great! the happiest time still with my family (:
argh, friday tomorrow! having my history paper ): one objective and one subjective. and what? coming out all f4 topics so i think im dying off soon. tried to review back is like none of the point i able to remember. hhmmm.. im gonna burn the midnight oil today. no choice right..
so let's see what im gonna update again maybe few hours later?
hahha..

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my TUESDAY in school

that's so boring in school today.. just having 1 maths paper today.. which is paper 1.. so it's objective! and yeahh.. i found out that i almost forgot all what i had studied last year.. * sob *
so no study today.. and everyone is chatting in a group and me as well..
and for while more me and friend lying on the table sleeping.. lolx.
ohh well.. im glad to meet cik. mang again. weee! that's the only teacher i miss the most during the whole holiday. since exam in going on and am not going spbt for duty and i can't meet her since she is not teaching my class any.. lolx.
and well, knowing that this saturday my school having merentas desa again. guess what?? my cheer teacher ask me to find 5 cheerleaders to cheer on that day and lead them into acrobat. oh gosh! im like " WHAT? " again.. so it's killing me.. exam is still on for another 2weeks.. and gotta practice that again? i where got so much time? argh no!
hhmm.. so im gonna find people to do that and im excluded.. and by the way i don't think im going toO.. so well.. let's see how..

school start - exam

urgh! school started today and im having exam ): but what? i can meet my friends again! (:
having BM and BI paper.
BM is suckx to me and i don't really have points to put in * sob * hope result come out won't be that suckx.
and yeahh.. BI! my most like subject (: weee!
i finish a directed writing in half hour time and about 300++ words turn up. so im the one who wrote the longest article in my class. it's easy and i don't really hafta think much since some points are given and what i hafta to do is just give some details to expand it..... to paragraph??! hehhe..
so is like an hour left, most people in the class lying on the table sleeping... that's what happened in my class while exam still on! lolx.
when the exam end, everyone talking bout it.. and i found out most people think that's difficult. gosh! im like " what?? "
anyway, there's maths tomorrow. and its gonna suck my brain out. lolx (:

suckish

i lose badly in my competition. so those who knows, please don't ask me again how's the result. it suckx! and i never expect that.
it's unbelievable.. and i never imagine that..
i needa find myself blameless now so stop asking me.. and yeahh, i gotta chill..
once i lose, i hafta suffer for another long periods of time..
i lose both.. so u should know what im talking bout..
and yeahh, im much alright now.. and im not gonna tell the result here..

* closed friends can ask me privately when my mood is fine *

so that's ur update. people out there, i know you guys great! im really alright now cause i don't wanna my dear to worry, so i hafta (:
hahha. seriously. that doesn't a matter dy k? cheers!

im addicted!

hey!! hhmmm.. feel like im kinda easy to be addicted with sumthing right now.
let's see what im addicted to right now..

1. wretch!! ( my new blog and it's cool with password protected article! )
2. song >>> Look Me In The Eye ( gosh, im so in love with it! )
3. editing ( i have no idea how many photos i edited these few days )
4. sushi!! ( i can have sushi every day and night^^ )
5. dance ( hahha.. after i quit for like 2years+ and im hooked with it again )
6. shopping!! ( shops to release stresses. lolx. )
7. movies ( any nice movie will do. so if u thinking of going for a movie, remember me!! )

okie, that's all about i guess. so im kinda in a 'high' mood. maybe it is because i've no more burdens? or because i am set free? erm.. or im too stress over study and i gone crazy? hahha.. either..
i seldom will update here nowadayz. busy with exam and study ): or i posted it in my wretch either. so close friend can ask me for the link (: u're so welcome then. wee!

hurts

dear, do you know that's hurt? and you hurt me do you know that? when im emo you're the one who cheer me but at the end you're the one who hurts me. how i hope that's not you but the fact it is. what else i can say?
at the moment when i found out there's something wrong, i feel like im the victim i'd been lied by you both, you both betrayed me.
either you can say im sensitive because im emo-ing, but the hurts never gone..
dear, can you please don't hurt me again???

memorable saturday

sorry for the late post. by the way it represent 'saturday 8/3'
okie, here goes....
early morning ben fetches me around 10am sumthing together with shann and her friends. they are late due to some traffic jam and so we are late. everything confirm very last minute and everything just so unorganized you see. no one know the supposed plan what time should be there and where to meet and and all.
anyways, after we bought tickets we give them a buzz and look for them sumwhere in theme park. by then is like nearly 12pm after waiting 3 of them to change to dry clothes and all. had our lunch there and did some introduction since there's new friends.
after all we started our first rides at the pirates ship. some people getting dizzy and feel vomiting. that's just the beginning. greater stories behind;)
overall the rides are nothing special and bored but the fellowship was just so great y'know. laughing at one another snap photos like crazy. that's girl's business. hhmmm...
received dearest sam messages for may be he will be coming to meet up. and the youth left theme park around 4pm sumthing to pyramid. while waiting poh ee and ben at the atm, sam called and not more than a minute i saw him right in front. ahhaha. kinda excited. anyways, introduce him to my youth and my youth to him. erm... kinda stunning..
so they discussed bout the transport going back home. since there's only one car and there's 9 of us. some force to take buses or whatsoever back home; some even reaching home late. so embarrassing to let sam saw what had happened. and it can proved to sam the reason why im leaving. so it can be sumthing bad and good at times.
all this coincidence im blessed. i decided to follow sam to his church and cg by then. for your information is was my first time visiting City Harvest. i like the speaker. ahahhaa.. so im blessed;)
cut the story short, everything end around 10pm and only we had our dinner. and by 11pm++ they fetch me back home. so what is actually happened in between is all crazy-people-doing.
supposed a boredom and died day became fun and meaningful, blessed and exciting!!
thanks girls for such nice and sweet unforgettable memories.
thanks dear for making my day so blessed and meaningful and................ crazy??!?
hahha.. yeahh.. here's some photos uploaded and some not with me yet;)

we are at some kids ride and act like kids =.="
raez and shien * winkz * she's so lovely cute :)

nice editing? thanks lovely for such great job ya ^_^

puisan , teng , raez. the wet look after river rides.. so terrible..

raez and puisan some bored shot while waiting the rest on some rides..

ahahha.. no worries, it's clean alright.. just a lil blur..

raez and shann. wet wet..

dear sam and raez! dinner with him after going to church with him:)

stresses

been stressed up recently. i mean when the begin of 2008.
either my study or ministry i have no idea. or both?
so i found out that im more hardworking than last year. yeah? i should.. and so im kinda left out my ministry.. anyway, sumthing hindering me continue to serve. i know it's bad and so not biblical but i got no choice. needa some times to chill. and will be better after all? i dare not answer this..
by the way, i gave up and everything's over. just to blame that cause im the eldest in the group. (exclude leaders)
that's so not good to be eldest you know. it's like all pressures and faults goes to you and your brain start blending inside and make u gone insane.
im not going to discuss more on this issue, all i want just do well in study and i will stop anything that will effect my study and anything that go against my plan. i tell you what, you are terrible and horrible when u start interrupting my life and you better watch out.
im not a good person when you start to dare me or sumthing. erm, anyone will do right? ahahha..
hope that i could have some times to update ya'll again.