stresses

been stressed up recently. i mean when the begin of 2008.
either my study or ministry i have no idea. or both?
so i found out that im more hardworking than last year. yeah? i should.. and so im kinda left out my ministry.. anyway, sumthing hindering me continue to serve. i know it's bad and so not biblical but i got no choice. needa some times to chill. and will be better after all? i dare not answer this..
by the way, i gave up and everything's over. just to blame that cause im the eldest in the group. (exclude leaders)
that's so not good to be eldest you know. it's like all pressures and faults goes to you and your brain start blending inside and make u gone insane.
im not going to discuss more on this issue, all i want just do well in study and i will stop anything that will effect my study and anything that go against my plan. i tell you what, you are terrible and horrible when u start interrupting my life and you better watch out.
im not a good person when you start to dare me or sumthing. erm, anyone will do right? ahahha..
hope that i could have some times to update ya'll again.