Singapore Trip Journal ~ day 2 ~

~ Day 2 ~
we joined NS group for WFL. they were on the topic of dynamic cg. wow. though i heard that quite many times in our youth, maybe a lil bored with it, but this time it is just so different. interesting! maybe the person who share on this topic different. hahha. cannot be..
i actually got lotsa new ideas on leading a creative cg in this WFL class.
there are 3 different type of cg.
- Matthew CG
- Evangelism CG
- Regular CG/Normal CG
we do having these 3 types of cg. we still do left out the important role of these 3 different cg.
for mcg, we are not just play games or having outings. everyone think is fun so is okie, enough. it is actually for us to gather everyone, to know one another's friends and to show God's love. it is not just exciting and fun. show God's love to them so that they able to feel the love of God as well.
bout ecg, we actually do need to bring our pre-believing friends. through ecg, so that they able to know God more. but normally i don't see much pre-believing friends with us during ecg but mcg.
objectives : discipleship , outreach , care , key role.
sumtimes we think that worship leading is sumthing like we go to bath we needa use shampoo so cg must have p&w. so wrong! we sing praise and worship is not just we needa sing songs to praise and worship God.. because nice songs.. as a worship leader should choose a proper songs according to the cg theme if any. is not that u like that songs and so you sing. worship leader is to lead people to experience God. we needa help them to experience God but not experience God through the worship leader. oh yea, worship leader needa know the limitation of guitarist. before everything start, should have enough spiritual preparation. make sure everything well-prepared before the cg start example lyrics.
sumtimes we wonder why do have a discussion group. it is for us to exchange ideas and feelings after a short sharing/teaching. sumtimes the ideas may help the group to grow/improve.
there are 3 types of group. discovery group is for those non-believer to discover on God more. foundation group must be relevant and make it simple for people to understand. out of that, make sure young believer understand. formation group can be open and personal. can share everything like transparent but not naked. should know what can share and what cannot share. don't preach but help people to understand it. that would be better.
to see the growth, we needa pray more for our ministry. prepare objectives and goals so there's a direction. trust God and have faith always.
i like the way they did. after all, they do have a demo on how to lead a discussion group. everyone in the group playing a different role. from there, everyone able to learn how to deal with different type of people due to which situations. that makes everyone easier to understand. great!!

here comes the climax. youth service!! sermon preached by Pst. Jasmine on the topic of How to You Enjoy Life (Phil 4 : 10 - 13).
really struck me on the 1st point pastor shared. learn how to avoid comparison. by that time, im thinking what makes me happy? okie, there's 3 misconceptions about happiness. some people must have what people have to be happy ; some people must be liked by everyone in order to be happy ; some people need to have more will make self more happy.
because of peer pressure, we like comparing. we needa have what people have or sumthing that better than others to make ourselves happy. another reason is that we have what others have so we can be friend with them.. to join others gang.. to be like by others. even Jesus do not like by everyone, so how can we?! to avoid all these, we needa learn to draw on God's power. trust God for He will deliver us and help us. continue to read bible and claims the promises. for what we have in this world, is all from God. He is the owner of all and we should know how to be satisfied. keep praying ;)

Singapore Trip Journal ~ day 1 ~

~ Day 1 ~
as i mentioned earlier, is a challenge for me to do street evax in others country. since im not kinda outspoken type of person and if u do not talk to me am not going to talk to u. if i know u that's different of course. as i said, i was grouped with WanTing during street evax in Causeway Point. i saw them sharing like eating rice so easy. i do observed the way she shared to the peoples. share a short story, draw the diagram, asking questions, share testimony. that's it!
- at the same time sharing to them, we should quickly bring out the important point. not everyone has the patient listening on what u share.
- do not share in a group of 3 or more if u're not grouping with so many.
- always observe their reaction. ask questions that is according to their reaction.
- share is as fast as possible. understandable and clear.
- share testimony so that able to touch their heart and to make them believe. true testimony!
when my turn to share, i have no idea where's the guts and courage comes from. i know what to share but still shaking. maybe lil nervous for the first time. but is a good result. both of them converted by WanTing led them to sinner prayer. hmm, i should be more confident next time on my sharing so result would turns out better.
just got to know that they actually doing street evax a5t least 3times a week during holiday. wow. so enouraging! for me, i guess i will turn out crazy then. guess i needa change in this area eh..

we attended NorthEast girls unit prayer meeting at Serangoon. when we reach, they are still practicing and much thing haven't be done yet.
during their practicing time, it reminds me that next time maybe we can have our practice as the same way. just we start our cg punctual and they are lil later. no offense.
since our youth do not have our own prayer meeting lidat so im looking forward what's going on next with the prayer meeting. but it can helps us to apply it for our prayer before cg start.
i learned how to lead a prayer meeting. one of this prayer there struck me the most while we were singing the song Pure Heart. there's a dirt in our heart that couldn't be remove and blocking us to go forward. but we do always forget to ask God to take this dirt away because we are not depending on our God. that is true. realy realy true. time to check our heart now!

these are the 2 things we did on the first day trip. minus the part hanging around in Bugis Village. hahha.

time for devotion!! albert was sharing on the Pro 28 : 23 - 24.
wow. it reflected me lotsa of things! lying is a sin. but people do still lie even they know it is a sin. this will happen in our daily live no matter who u are. why? we lie to cover/protect self. to cover the imperfects so that others can only see our perfects. beware of your tongue. truth is better than lie. do not say anything if you do not know the truth. cause it could cause death or some serious. at this point, i realized that some people around us are doing it. just they wanna to let people think they're way smarter pretending they know everythings. or is for own goods. we actually sumtimes do lie just to protect ourselves. to know our mistakes in our daily lives, we should pray more and read bible everyday. of course devotion! slowly, we can see the changes in us.

random feeling post

make some conclusions of the whole trip.
erm, maybe not conclusion but how do i feel bout this trip? okie..
before i go to S'pore. a week before. i did planned everything nicely. what i wanna learn from them etc. i do have my objectives on going this trip.
i do went mission in Mentakab for Christmas 2years back. it's way way different compare to this in Singapore. it reflected me the goodness of God for that mission trip in Mentakab. God led us through the whole mission and we can see the power of prayer and how God lead us through.
back to the point, i'd learned what i wanna learn from them. purpose of this trip fulfilled. and i learned sumthing much more better which is out of my expectation.
sumthing that impressed me the most there are the peoples there. i can see their heart for God! their spiritual life are really strong. it reminded me, is time for me to change. am so touched by the brothers and sisters there. especially the leaders. never see them complaining even the situation going so wrong. wow. how great! fantastic! incredible!
God is good all the time! He got the bestest plan for us and it is always wonderful! trust in Him no matter what!

p/s : check on the next blog. see what i'e learned on different days.

Singapore Trip - 4th Day

this is the last day in S'pore and we are leaving in the morning 11. so we woke very early to pack our things. it was LP's birthday. we surprised her a cupcake(represent birthday cake) with big candles and chocs around. hahha.
Happy Blessed Birthday LP! in the room..
before leaving, gotta say goodbye to Harry and Jun Liang since both of them not going with us. Peter lead us to Novena Square for our bus leaving there. i messaged Derrick asking whether he's coming over. he do not reply and i expected he's not coming since he told me he can only be release at 9am. kinda disappointed. while on the way to Clementi MRT station to meet Nicole, we saw Derrick with his NS uniform. lolx. he surprised me. hahha. supposed wanna have breakie with Nicole and her sis. but she ended up saying wanna join the mandarin service and plan failed. Peter lead them to church and Derrick will be leading us to Novena. we had a rushed breakie+lunch at the food court at the same time waiting for Peter. we able to get into bus on time but we reached the last though. but fine! really appreciate Peter for the arranged. both of Peter and Derrick are having cg around 12 30pm and 1pm. but they still company us till the bus left. i think Peter getting so busy calling peoples to meet us and things. arranged our trips. wow. i don't think i able to do that toO. Harry! he offered us staying in his house. we sleeping in air-cond room. missionaries shouldn't be so comfortable huh. thanks so much for the warmth hospitalities! and about Derrick, he's pretty tired after duties and sleepless. summore he gotta wear his army uniform under hot sun and sweats. he needa rush back home to change and straight attend cg.
till this point, i got a clearly purpose of serving. everything they did impressed me alot and i got encouraged by them. no words that can express how do i feel at the moment. hope that i can visit them again sooner. seriously. miss u guys! thanks for serving and God bless:)
Raez and Derrick in MRT. funny Albert doing funny things behind. last pic with Derrick. before leaving. our bus just beside;)

Singapore Trip - 3rd Day

as i said i had a promise with Derrick. his promise to me is that wake me up before he leaving to his camp for army duty. supposed at 6 30am but ended up he woke me at 7am sumthing. nevermind, is okie. the point is he do woke me. the reason is to show me how he looks like in his army uniform. was thought he would miss call me or sumthing to wake me, who knows he came into my room woke me up. at first i thought YC calling me but when i turned back, WOW, Derrick! he way way look smarter and more serious with his army uniform. hahha. after he leave, i continue to sleep. anyway, i woke late by then. i rushed myself in almost everything who knows sumone later than me. =.=" here's the climax of the whole mission trip. why? we are going to Nexus for youth service. they have 3 different sections for different groups of peoples. so we were in the 2nd service with the NS peoples. before that, we joined NS peoples for their WFL. is about dynamic cg. i got lots of ideas from there. on how to lead a cg.. duty roles etc.
oh yea, i met Jerel, Nick and Jol. wow. almost couldn't recognized them. toO sad never able to met YiQin. and yea, Jol getting prettier. more like a lady compare to the student look. hahha. good news! after WFL, we went downstairs for lunch. and we were led by Daniel and Shaun to the shopping complex opposite to get some appreciation gifts there at Mark&Spencers. since time rushing, we never get to have a walk there and back to Nexus for service. wow. Hope S'pore church is COOL. their Hope store is more like a Christianity shop. this place, before became our church, it was a cinema. so u can be told the church is like a cinema. got the scenario? the different is that there's an extra a big stage in the front. lolx.
this is how the church looks like. maybe not so clear bout it. just to show it stage.
how glad our church in S'pore is at Orchard Road. wow. after service, we joined Central girls for meeting. we played games and do sharing. that's fun! and follow by then we had a sermon discussion group with Peter's cg. and there, i saw Jie Hui(SDL of the NS group). he absent for service cause having exam. God bless u, JH! is a meaningful discussion. and GREAT sermon preach by Pst.Jasmine. now comes the fun time! we went to Makan Sutra for dinner together a few NS guys and Pst.Shirley. woots! thanks them even more! we don't even pay a cent for foods. all nice foods and toO much of it. so blessed~

dinner at Makan Sutra. YingLin missed out in this pic. he went earlier. of course JH! he's holding the cam. lolx.
we went visit around that places. of course can't miss out visiting Melion! we led by 'da jie' JH. lolx. this is how his NS guy call him. took photos like a crazy. hahha.
Aeron(which i do hope i spell correctly) , Raez , Rayson , Guo Feng , Sida
Sida , Raez , Rayson(what he did make him looks cute and funny)
NS group 'da jie' JIeHui and Pj youth 'da jie' Raez. lolx..
JieHui , Raez , Yoke Ching
Guo Feng , Raez , Aeron
around 11pm sumthing, everyone went home selves.that's the last night i met JH cause going back to KL next morning. anyway, i know i do still have chance to meet him again and them. lolx. no worries:) we went home and got call to go supper. this is what Peter used to. supposed wanna celebrate birthday for LP that night. but both plans failed in the end. she was pretty tired and don't feel like going anywhere. we went supper and lil special is that we had supper with Nicole(our sister in Hope Pj; college group leader) and her sis. that makes the night even younger!! hmm, Peter drives kinda normal that day. no more roller coaster. hahha.

Singapore Trip - 2nd Day

have no idea why me and YC woke so early that day. supposed to wake at 9am but we ended up woke at 8am. maybe we getting exciting bout the events? hahha. nevermind. we got ourselves well prepared so that we can leave earlier and so we did. hahha. we took an hour journey from Clementi to Woodlands, Causeway Point(shopping center). we are meeting the North girls cg there for street evax. at first we had our breakie+lunch at the food court. cut the story short, not gonna mention everything but the point. i was grouped with WanTing.



Raez and WanTing





at first she shared and im the back-up. followed by me i shared also the last. is a challenge for me to street evax in sumwhere not in my country. the point is that different culture different life styles. i have no way idea to introduce myself but thank God WanTing helping me by side. i shared the important part and she will be sharing those church activities and self-intro part. we had 2 converts the end!! praise God!!

back: Albert ; front: Yoke Ching , Raez , WanTing , XinRu
lunch at food court after street evax.
we left there around 3 30pm and rush to Serangoon to attend NorthEast unit prayer meeting. anyway, prayer meeting started late. and we ended late i guess. we had our dinner with some leaders around that area. nice chatting with them and thanks alot for those nice foods. we didn't even pay a cent for it except for our own drinks. almost everything finish, 'tour guide' changed. Peter needa go back home for sumthing and replaced by Derrick(he's a cute guy). he brought us to meet up together Han Yang(the one do attended LifeGame at the same time for mission) and Bruce, we went Bugis Village for a walk then. like our Chinatown here. but there is way way much better than here im sure. everyone had an ice-cream before leaving. nice!! we gotta be back earlier for devotion and waiting for LP to arrive. while waiting for LP, we had finished our devotion. by the way, we shared junk foods together with Harry and Bruce and chit-chatted. that's our supper i guess. hehhe. Derrick and Han Yang fetching LP around 12am and had supper with LP by then since LP haven't had her dinner. they back around 2am. =.=" so we slept late again around 3am. i guess we were not tired. maybe we were? because walking for a long journey. maybe not so long. hahha. before going to bed, got a promise with Derrick. what's the promise? check it out on the 3rd day then;)

this is sumwhere we saw on the way going back to Clementi from Bugis Village.
Yoke Ching , Raez , Albert. 3 of us from Pj youth. the missionaries ;)
Derrick , Yoke Ching , Raez , Han Yang , Bruce

Singapore Trip - 1st day

wow. been keeping so out of touch with my blog. been to S'pore for youth mission trip?!?? lolx.
so let's see what i did there ya.. hahha..
let's talk bout the first day.
i woke up quite late that day since our bus leaving in the evening 4 30pm.
after checking everything that i needa bring, my mom fetched me to her office for lunch then she'll fetch me to KTM station to meet up YC there.
we met there around 2pm. bought tickets.. get ourselves into KTM to KL Central.. went McD for lunch at the same time waiting for Albert.
around 3pm sumwhere around there, we took LRT to Bangsa. we are taking FirstCoach to S'pore and leaving at Bangsa.
we get our tickets and waited for like 30mins we get into our bus. oh yeah, the bus left on time! hahha. at the same time, we received lots messages from our(me and yc) friends saying GOOD LUCK and GOD BLESS. hahha. thanks people!
this kinda exciting for both of us cause first time going to S'pore. we talk non-stop seriously. after 2hours lidat, we were stop by sumwhere to have dinner and a break for 20mins. while 3 of us were looking around, guess what's going on?? hahha. we saw Nicole and Kim. that was surprised! 'sumone' doing funny things recording there that they saw us sumwhere. hahha.
Raez and Yoke Ching in the bus. exciting!!
random post. nice pic. hehhe. thanks YC!

story to be continue in the bus. finally we reached immigration. checked passport.. gone through custom. wow! we are in S'pore after 5hours journey. that not so a long journey for me. hehhe. wow. me and YC actually chatted 5hours non-stop then. hehhe.
our bus stopping at Novena around 9pm there. after we took our luggage i was thought that maybe Albert will contact Peter or someone else bout our arriving by that time. who knows suddenly there's this someone called me from behind and i was like "WOW! PETER!!" ahahha. that's funny of me ;) Peter coming together with Harry(the one whom we gonna stay in his house during this trip) and Jun Liang whom we met in LifeGame camp that he went over for mission).
Yoke Ching, Raez, Albert, Peter, Jun Liang. Harry holding cam. erm, photo is blur i know ;p
we bought this 'do it all on one card' - ez link.
here's the front of the card..
and here's the back of the card..
it is the use of taking public transport. touch and go. lolx. since we haven't take our dinner, so we prefer go back to Harry's house and download our things before dinner. so we took MRT to Orchard and switch to bus going back to Harry's house in Clementi. we went dinner sumwhere nearby by Peter's driving. not going to mention the way he drives. ahem*
around 12am sumthing we reached back and take our bath. before we sleep we have a short briefing bout our trip by Peter. we ended up sleeping at 3am....

Michelle's Birthday

we went to 1U after cg to celebrate michelle's birthday as i mentioned earlier in my previous blog. here's the picxie :)


this is the cake we bought for michelle. her surprised!
it's a blackforest flavor. since she loves strawberries that much. so here's 5!


hahha. we were teased her by using mouth to take the candle out. her challenge ;p

time to cut her cake! yea.. we were waiting to have a piece of it! yummy..

michelle and raez. Happy Sweet Sixteen, Michelle!!

sam , michelle , raez.

anny , michelle , raez.

sam and raez. 2 blackie ladies. hahha. she looks younger but actually she's the eldest among us :)

Cycling Care-Group(CG) photos

as my promises i'll upload those picxie i took in Bukit Cahaya. finally i tranffered all the picxie from my phone to my computer and laptop. hehhe.
here goes the picxie...








michelle and raez. this is what we did in the car. bored..
sunlights look good eh..
















and here goes the 2 pigs who sleep in the car.
wonder why they can smile when sleeping. lolx.













sweating after walking all the way in.
took it after i fainted. hahha.
but my both cheeks still look pink :)


















raez and shannen.
just can't stop loving the nice scene..


















shannen. windy. raez.
that's the boyish and pretty who don't really know how to ride. and the another just give up riding after fainted.
this is a very nice place. sumthing a river or lake behind. couldn't know what's that really. it's toO big and never see the ends.
with the nice tall greenie trees surrounding. ace!











shannen. raez. pei kuan.
we were in the snow house which is located in sumthing like a factory.
this factory contains 4 seasons according to the months and following some countries' season. is exactly the same. u can have that kinda feeling u are at sumwhere countries.
have no snowing because it is not the month of snowing. sobbie..

















windy. raez. pei kuan.
it is real cold in there. they are not providing any jackets.














shannen. windy. raez.
bestest forever!!
though we were kinda freezing in there. but still we are trying to do sumthing fun and cute.
hahha..
as a memorable!!










shannen. raez.
toO bad we can only see half of the snow house.
we actually wanna walk in there but pretty cold. may not really able to stand with the cold.
anyway, still a nice pic.















hehhe.
the snow house it's just behind us.
can see the cold smile?
cold!! but cool!!


















hmm.. this pic doesn't really look good.
cause im freezing. never able to smile better.
















this is the pic i love the most :) i have a good photographer. hahha.
focus on the scene. it is sumthing a forest without leaves but covered with the snow flakes.




















scene #1














scene #2















scene #3















scene #4



















yay!! here's the group photo!!











we have 6visitors...
and 1 regular visitor..
toO bad some of our member not able to join us.
we enjoy very much!!
so..
hope there's some chance to have our youth camp here again since we had it here last year.
youth rockx!!

Cycling Care-Group(CG)

aiks, just feel free to update my blog. so let's see what happened these few days.
hmm........
supposed we have bowling cg yesterday(saturday) but the acls changed it to cycling cg and we were be informed on thursday night which i only saw the message on friday morning. i call up my friends and inform them bout the changes. sadly, i got scolded by some of them and got rejected. some of us do confused our visitors. i wondered since they knew it earlier and why don't they inform ealier? why last minute? kinda frustrated at time but erm.. i believe there's a better plan from God. so then i forget bout it; keep inviting some others friends. praise the living God, 3 of my friends going.
we ended up have our cycling cg at Bukit Cahaya , Shah Alam which is the place where we had our youth camp there last year and that i hope i able to go there again. we have 6 visitors, 1 regular visitors joining us that day.
some of us reached there quite early around 3pm(later than the time we supposed planed). some reached kinda late for they lost their way.
it is a very nice... forest? parks? but is sumthing a combination of forest and parks for me. nevertheless, fresh airs!! we chosen the bicycles that we wanna and rented it for an hour. when everyone's getting so excited, sumthing bad happened on me when on the way in. im not pk. but have no idea why i fainted(which i guess im okie now). i decided to walk with 2 pretty and boyish ladies for they dunno how to ride companied by a sister. she guided us. we enjoyed they journey walking in with jokes. besides, we were stopped by some stall and bought some drinks and junk food shared it.
we visited a place(like a factory) which have 4 seasons according to the months following some countries. so it is exactly like you were in some countries when you are in there. trust me!! we just needa pay for rm1. rm1! can u believe it? gosh! the worker there told us that this is the month where just have lil snow flakes and not snowing yet. the best month to visit is december for it is snowing. SNOWING!! there's 4 nor 3 decorations maybe it's representing different places or countries. goodness. i pick up my mind to come here again with my friends nor family. not the snow, but the happy moment we have in there.
we were freezing, but never forget to take some nice photos toO. cool. next time we should bring some jackets since they are not providing any. hahha. on the way visiting the.. snow house? whatsoever. we passed by a river? lake? anyway, it is really nice with the nice tall tress surrounding. gosh, am be infatuated with the nature and environment there. wonderful nature that God created for us!
time rushing so we were not able to visit the drawbridge. it is hanging half way, narrow and long summore high. i never imagine myself walking on the bridge with the bridge swinging half way. that's scary!
we do took some group photo before we left. around 5 30pm(sumwhere there) we followed our beloved drivers back home. thanks Kar Lock for his willingness to help us out with the transportation even he's not youth. and Pei Kuan, she stay quite far away and she waisted 2hours plus to fetch some of us home. appreciate them alot really. thanks for giving to the Lord, may God bless u both as u served!
oh yea, at the same time it was my friend - Michelle's birthday. she do joined our cg. 4 of us went to 1U celebrate for her(which she dunno what's going next). she blindly followed us everywhere. we go to this hongkong style restaurant to have dinner since it was dinner time. after we ordered what we wanna, me and Lee Kuan went away and we lied we wanna buy sumthing. actually we were looking for a nice cake with her flavor for he birthday. hmm, can hardly find cake shop there. so we were running up and down like a crazy.
after meals, we chit-chatting there.. talking bout the cg just now. suddenly, we surprised her by singing birthday songs for her and the waitress helped us to brought the cake out at the same time. her tears almost dropped seriously. hahha. she was touched by our surprises for her. she has the most memorable birthday celebration so far as she said. may God bless her in her studies and her health and God will continue to guide this chiq's spiritual life so that she will glorify Him. Blessed Sweet Sixteen!
we reached home around 9 30pm. after i got everything done, i went to bed for im having some headache(maybe some affections after fainted), prepare for service tomorrow(today)!
will upload some photos sooner ;)

shepherding

hahha. holiday!! exciting mood..
i have a wonderful combined shepherding with Shannen at PizzaHut together our shepherd Ngee Sun. goodness. been really long never have pizza. almost forgot how pizza taste like. hahha. sounds funny.
have no idea why i love combine shepherding. maybe the atmosphere not gonna ended up so serious? at least there's more jokes? hahha. maybe.. but still i hope i can have more chances on combine shepherding if is possible.
anyway, why must we feel pressure talking to our shepherd? ani't we are even closer than others? hahha. maybe the teacher throw a gloom over us. so we treated shepherd as teacher. but i guess this happen only among the high school students. not sure it is because of shy or pressure.
hmm, i hope im not gonna be the same again. i wanna change!! change!!
okie, challenge myself now.. ciaoz..

Revision Test

im doing a revision test prepared by my shepherd. hmm, those questions i think is quite easy, not toO hard to answer. through this test, it helps me to review back lots of things. it reflects me what God has blessed me so far.. and how's my attitude of serving. this is a very good test and i do wanna encourage all shepherds to give their sheeps such test so that it could help them in growing and knowing God more.
the last question require to write a testimony in 100 words. i keep thinking "what should i write in 100 words?". when i start to think.. my tears start to drop.. it reminded me how blessed i am and how God lead me through out all circumstances i'd been through.
i guess i really hafta pray harder to God asking what He wanna me to write to testify Him in 100 words. i hope i can have a better answer tomorrow.
so yea, thanks shepherd!! u're the best and i love u really!!

random post of my new hair style

oh yay!! ended up i got some photo of mine with new hair style. toO bad can't see those highlights because it is behind. hope i can take some photos of it. gorgeous love my highlights now. hahha.

here goes the picxie..

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post 2#

never speak when you're in anger..

never believe whatever the person say when that person is in anger or in dilemma. especially those who are schizophrenic. yeah.
i know im a lil, not critical, not at all times. and i have no idea what i'd said to my lovely girl that day. but i guess i hurts her summore with the article i blogged here. but forget bout it. im actually dunno what im doing and saying(im lost in control) till my cousins(which 2 of 'em are doctor) realized im going sumthing wrong and try to stop me from getting so lost in control.
they forced me with some medications and jab me with some vaccine so that i able to cool down. im stupefy by some narcotics and so im fall asleep till the next day i woke up i still dunno what's going on with me, couldn't regain consciousness. maybe the narcotics and medications still not gone. i apologized when i sobered up. i hope she understand and she's alright. i know it after my cousin told me the whole stories. hmm, i guess maybe im toO stressed out at the same time in dilemma and i couldn't stand with the circumstances so cause me psychopathic.
i hope this not gonna happened anymore. it's really scary to me. it's scary!!

p/s : sorry, girl.. if you're reading this, you know im talking bout you!

TRICKING!!!!!!! part 2

oppss.. i remembered he do mentioned TRICKING in his blog with videos and he's into it. hahha. that's all my fault.
he's excited talking bout it. he's saying mostly he cant land the TRICK nicely. just got to know he actually start to TRICK since this year.
anyway, hope he can do better in his spm not TRICK(for the moment right now) and don't be sotong anymore through out the whole weeks till the spm thingy ends.
TRICKING is a cool sport really. hope that i can have the opportunity seeing sumone TRICKING and landed nicely. that's even cool. hahha.
keep it up for TRICKING. hahha. believe that he can do it one day which i dunno when. all the best in exam and i think he can score with flying colors the smartie.
never forget bout him in my prayer always;)

TRICKING!!!!!!!

TRICKING!! TRICKING!! TRICKING!! hate this word dy..
never thought of TRICKING could be a sport since im not that sporty and all in my mind is just SWIMMING.
im sure it doesn't seems to be any famous sport in kl.. not much people know.. after asking quite a few person what does mean.
TRICKING is sumthing a martial art & gymnastic. erm.. complicated for me to tell what's that. sumthing a combinations of some sports. err.. sumthing lidat. okie, fine!
woi dude! don't blame larh.. what you mean you never assume i know everything huh? hello! not my fault okie.. of course we thinking sumthing much more familiar using the word TRICKING. sorry is the word i can only say.
mad at times but i learned there is this sumthing call TRICKING. fine. forgiven. since u're stressed out+freaked out.
forget bout you!! yeah!!
ciaoz..

new hair style!!

what a happy day!!
hahha..
early in the morning i woke up and got prepared myself.. wear so neatly and nicely.. wait for my parents.. guess what? hahha. im following them to their office(not working) and go this grand saloon nearby their office. i followed them for breakfast and cool down for a while around 10am, i go to the saloon and perm my hair+highlight. hahha.
what a good service. i perm my hair at the same time doing manicure!! hahha. like im some rich woman going to some beauty shop to have some service. hahha. feeling so great!
okie, this not the first time i go to saloon and set hair. but most the time i go for rebonding and this the first time i perm. excited!! have no idea why.
comes to this highlight part, supposed i wanna highlight some purple red(that's really cool) but there's lots of steps to do if i wanna highlight that color summore kinda troublesome when the color started to comes out. so fine. i choosen some golden brown which is quite nice and cool. result came out even better what i expected u know. hahha.
and yea, i do some treatments so my hair's protected!!
after everything got done, i went shopping with mom for while since there's still time. hahha. feeling cool with my new hairstyle walking on the streets. at least sumthing different. a sporty look. hahha.
love my golden hair!! getting insane now :)

dude!!!!

sumone making me getting pretty mad. gosh, feel like killing him now! KILLING!!
if you're this person and you reading this, you should know i'm talking bout you dude!
you're kinda getting mysterious to me. or actually this is one of your characteristic? or this is what a dude should act like? hmmm, i wonder... oh yea, you love MIA eh.. now i believe. MIA suddenly? yeah, that's you! ain't?
fine, forget bout you. bad guy you are. but sumtimes can be good at times? hmmm, weird larh u..
okie, really gotta forget bout u now!
ciaoz..

just some random post..

bored!!! im just bored without any reason why am so.
okie fine. the 7cm cut getting recover. not sure is the ice works or the antibiotic works. watcha think?? but still have lots of foods cannot eat. oh sad...
talk about tomorrow. holiday!! but ain't happy. going to immigration tomorrow to have my international passport. other than that, needa settle up some of my migration thingy.
funny!! and i really mean it!! when the time u can't leave u feel like leaving to wherever u think that' good. but when the time u can leave u don't feel like leaving anymore. yeah am i. still remember when the time i came here i don't feel any unable to part. it's innocence!
that's toO much for me to sacrifice if i wanna migrate;back to the place i belongs to. hey, im a human, fill with feelings. my friends.. my parents.. my church.. my youth.. my dearest all.. my love one?? my home here.. all my good old times happened here! kinda hard for me to just leave lidat. tears drop..
anyhow, i need some times to really think bout it. i might regret by then.
so that's the updates so far..

funny?? unfortunate??

what a funny day!! there's sumthing happened such like a big joke. im not gonna detail what's happening, cause it's really doesn't make sense.
sumone accidentally has a long cut on my leg which is 7cm long with blades but not that deep though. hers deeper than mine. nah is okie for me seriously. by the way, i hope she's alright and hope that she's awaken from all incidents.
at first, i do not feel anything with the cut, just felt lil cold(it's bleeding!). my friends saw and they were panic! and keeping shouting " rae... rae... rae.. chel.. uuuurrrrr lllleeeeeggg.... uuuurrrrr llleeeggggggg! " and i was like " huh? my leg? what? " things continue and after i saw my leg' bleeding, im like " okie, that's coOl. my leg's bleeding.. so? and her hand's bleeding.. so? go to hospital.. lolx. so? " hahha.
slowly when the use of narcotics gone, i started to feel the pains. i can't see what's going on with the cut because it is being wrapped with some gauze. it reminded a year back(sumwhere there) it happened the almost same case. i got a cut on my hand with 10cm long and is deeper compare to this. i forgot how could i suffered at that moment and know i feel it again. aiks...
i gonna scream out loud with the 7cm pain. hahha. since it is wrapped by doctor and i can't do anything with it. im wondering, how come i don't feel such pain with 10cm cut but 7cm?? hmm..
was chatted with JK. he knows what's going on. this funny dude ask me to use ice to reduce the pain and he never know izit works. hahha. this cause me can hardly walk or sit. painful!!! but still, thanks JK. can't feel any pain while chatting with him but laughing all the way.(that's not the point) hahha. i used his way to advice sumone and followed whatever he taught. even both were ended be sent to hospital but the situation at least has been simplify and couldn't critical. (minus the impulsive part) hehhe.
but still thanks people for concerning, and those who help out the complex situation. and what i did doesn't mean im daring but impulsive.(for those who knows) lolx. that's how the 7cm cut on my leg comes from.
and so, you're right JK. i should be careful and take care myself right? hahha..

what does " HAPPY" means to me?

am i really happy? if i dunno, no one else know. i almost think everyday, am i happy today?? i find out million of reason am happy but eventually that's not work! how sad to have such answer.. am satisfied with everything i had but is only temporary. it can satisfy my physical needs but never spiritual needa though. if u think that' still consider HAPPY.
i know that people out there may think im fine, im happy(that's how my 'happy-maker' comes from), im more open-minded or whatsoever excuses can be. yea, never judge a books with its cover. what you can see from me eventually is not who im supposed to be. there's sumone told me that im actually choleric. erm, im melancholy, sorry. choleric is just the way how i act like. hmm, that's my greatest job that i able to cover without anyone's realizing. hahha.
nowadayz, more and more people seeking for happiness. i tell you what, everyone's influencer and we get influence very easily. if people around u tend to be happy and you are happy but if people around you tend to be sad and you are sad toO. i did survey. lemme ask u, if people around u keep troubling you or hurting you, will u happy? nah, there's a NO right??
this is what the world nowadayz is. you can hardly find sumone which doesn't hurt or trouble you. the percentage that u can get this kinda people is 90%.
i was once happy, but i guess never for present. anyhow i can still show you my very sweet smiling face every day every moment and i can have zillion funs like crazy, but never from the inside out though.
my happiness can only glow in my memories. bygone be bygone. time for me to move on fighting for another battle, suffer for the next second.
ciaoz..

buzzie life

am so sleepless recently. getting more towards panda looks. urgh.. burn the midnight oil, dealing with some cases, rushing projects etc. (couldn't finish listing out all. that' toO much)
the busy-ness of mine makes me forget about what is tire and restless and hungry. thank God! all of these gonna be end sooner. and i can have my normal life again getting out of busy?? hahha. never know. ask God maybe?
seriously, most of my friends they love to imagine how they would be in their future working life. i would never imagine. im busy enough even haven't comes to work. what else more when really comes to work? hahha.. i dunno.. never think.. never wanna know. cruel for me to think bout it. hehhe.
can hardy get a chance to really into chatting online mood. or friendster or blog. phone calls non-stop(not to chat but it's urgent+important), sms non-stop, messages non-stop. terrible!
i hope that the time can stop down, so that, i able to sit down and relax and take a deep good sleep. nah, it could happen! really! in my dream.. *bleh*
time for me to get back into busy life, and getting my head out of mind.
ciaoz..