never speak when you're in anger..

never believe whatever the person say when that person is in anger or in dilemma. especially those who are schizophrenic. yeah.
i know im a lil, not critical, not at all times. and i have no idea what i'd said to my lovely girl that day. but i guess i hurts her summore with the article i blogged here. but forget bout it. im actually dunno what im doing and saying(im lost in control) till my cousins(which 2 of 'em are doctor) realized im going sumthing wrong and try to stop me from getting so lost in control.
they forced me with some medications and jab me with some vaccine so that i able to cool down. im stupefy by some narcotics and so im fall asleep till the next day i woke up i still dunno what's going on with me, couldn't regain consciousness. maybe the narcotics and medications still not gone. i apologized when i sobered up. i hope she understand and she's alright. i know it after my cousin told me the whole stories. hmm, i guess maybe im toO stressed out at the same time in dilemma and i couldn't stand with the circumstances so cause me psychopathic.
i hope this not gonna happened anymore. it's really scary to me. it's scary!!

p/s : sorry, girl.. if you're reading this, you know im talking bout you!