~ A - DAY - TO - BE ~

new blog

2008-04-06T01:30:00.001+08:00

hahha. i guess im too bored or sumthing.
i got a new blog and wasted lotsa time editing the layout.
well, i dunno how many blogs i have now.
about 3? sumthing lidat..
link my another blog at :
http://raez0403.blogspot.com/
i know im getting lame =.="

thanks Kelvin

2008-04-03T18:25:00.004+08:00

2 APRIL 2008

i came home late today and received Kelvin's message
asking bout to meet up at night at 1U
and to company him find sumthing for his lovely..
he fetched me around 6 30pm
and glad he at least never get lost
hahha
it was heavy rain that time so everywhere is jam!!
when we reached there is about 7sumthing
and he wanted to look for his friend
at the Triumph Exhibition.
after that we shop around to hunt for what he wants.
we had our dinner at SUSHI GROOVE!
weeee! that's my favourite ;)
he paid for my meals cause the next day is my birthday!
ohh well, i had my green tea ice-cream (:
so satisfied enough.. hehhe..
he ended bought a white gold ring for his lovely at Tomei
* nice ring *
and he ended bought me sumthing which im so in love as present -
" 7zai " (if u do watch CJ7 the alien cutie)
well, since getting late, he send me back
at the same time i gotta show him where's my school.
fyi, he's coming to give workshop next week (:
we called KC to disturb her a bit
since she didn't know im with him. hehhe.
we chatted for quite long at the car park
when Kelvin send me back.

okie, great! that's about all my early birthday celebration which celebrated with Kelvin.
thanks for the present and meals. hehhe! well, u making my birthday great!!

my cutie!

count down

2008-04-02T22:30:00.001+08:00

RAEZ IS COUNTING DOWN TO HER BIRTHDAY!!
IS LIKE ABOUT 1 HOUR AND 10MINS LEFT.
* HAPPY *

princess day

2008-03-31T00:45:00.004+08:00

i love you, daddy mommy! you make me a wonderful princess today!
i celebrated my early birthday today with surprise!
went to my favourite restaurant at Terminal! weeee!
my aunts and uncles and cousins were all there
though they are a bit of late reaching there.
dad ordered all nice foods ^^
and is all my favourite!! weeee!
and well, everyone's tummy were so full with nice foods (:
mommy bought me my favourite green tea cake!!
* im loving it *
they sang birthday song for me there
and i feel like im a perfectly happy lovely princess ^_^
well, first time having my birthday celebration with my korean cousin.
she's so pretty than in the photo.
she makes a pretty nice necklace for me.
had the most memorable sweetest birthday celebration. weee!

and in memory of today,
thanks Alvis for giving me such great early birthday celebration on today last year.
he's always my greatest leader!!

thanks daddy mommy for the surprises^^
thanks all my lovely family members who came celebrated with me
and the presents and making my day so sweet memorable and wonderful^^

mommy took that on the way to Terminal

mommy say this princess look so happy ^^

raez and suji aka my korean cousin

my favourite green tea cake (:

raez and hong aka my cutie pie

raez and the lovely cake with cutie pie ^_^

ermm.. suji took that =/

argh.. the nice necklace my lovely korean cousin suji made for me. *thanks* *heart*

ooppss.. i realise i forgot to take a group photo =/
well, some photo not with me.. will upload more when i get 'em all..

lovely family

2008-03-29T22:51:00.001+08:00

ohh nooooo!
i just can't wait for tomorrow!!
well, my birthday is coming so soon (: and my daddy and mommy invited my aunts and uncles celebrating an early birthday for me tomorrow night at my favourite restaurant! my korean cousin will be there too. is like my first time celebrating my birthday with her.
im getting so exciting and im not able to sleep. hehhe..
so i think im gonna be the shutterbug tomorrow. weeee!
i love you, daddy & mommy. you are great!!
~ loving family ~

hope or disappointment

2008-03-28T23:49:00.003+08:00

hope or disappointment?
i do not know..
do they hafta?
is that a must of doing so?
comparative and calculative
because they pro!
as words continue,
am thinking of this -
why everything about money?
is that a must to be calculative?
if you really wants to help,
do you hafta calculate with money?
is that the rule?
that can be so cruel
even i know that
it is quite fair to some..
im kinda wonder
with what you pros said
and i would really wants to ask..
are you sure you wants to help?
or it is because of money?
izit money only can deal with it?
well.. is that a hope?
or is a disappointment?

disappointing moment

2008-03-28T00:40:00.002+08:00

so disappointed..
from what i heard just now.
didn't know it is just so complicated
and make things can be in trouble??!
it has a little bad impression for me now
and im kinda regret how i told my friend that's not true
so i guess im wrong now...
that is all what i don't hope and don't expect to see!
and well, i think im gonna disappoint my members now..
prideful and complicated
that makes me feel so uncomfortable with it
i have got no others choice
since i make things so happening
im wrong and im really wrong!
now i realize the truth...

cheerleading

2008-03-27T21:19:00.004+08:00

as if u read my previous post, you'll know that im kinda suffering for my school cheerleading. well, chatted with Sam and Kelvin Loh and things work better. as for Sam, he's trying to work things out. he's trying best to find his transport to my school to coach us or if not he's finding his friend to coach us. that's great! how glad.. *heart dear* so im kinda stress release abit. ohh, having open day for cheerleading in my school like in 2weeks later. well, Kelvin might be coming to help and teaching some basics. greatest is that he's arranging his time to come over and he at least abit well known my school area. so is like easier for me to bring him to my school. *appreciate*
i do chat with Rachel Ng by sending messages in fs. she's giving me lotsa ideas and tips on leading a cheerleading in school since it is new! and kinda encouraged by her words as well. she's helpful and im kinda admire her passion for cheerleading. that struck me! *thanks*
had meeting with my people.. assist.. admin etc about our planning.. talking bout our open day and uniform.. so it seems there's a way out now.. and im not so lost since i got a really great assistant and admin.. not much to worry though.. thanks Celine and Marilyn :) *heart you both*
my admin typing out a letter for hm to approval.. hhmmm.. we can't do much except waiting for the letter to be approve and maybe we will update our hm more information bout that..
thanks girls (: and thanks those whose name i mention above. love ya people..

thanks dear (:

2008-03-26T02:17:00.002+08:00

im really really emo!!
i was crying at the same time chatting with sam
sam do not make me cry
just i feel im really that useless
im not qualified to be a cheerleader what else more a captain?
it is hard to find a coach to teach..
uniform.. t-shirt.. all haven't done yet..
though in words im not able to express much to sam..
but im crying
seriously.
and by the way he do makes me smile...
so as i said..
sam always makes me smile when i cry
and makes my cry when i laugh (as in i laugh till tears drop) lolx.
his words always struck me and im encouraged by him..
ermm.. feeling abit better after throwing everything to him..
and he wil makes me smile again >.<

p/s : thanks dear :) u're great all the times whenever i need u..

tagged by sam

2008-03-26T00:15:00.003+08:00

argh.. tagged by sam =/ anyway, here goes....

1. Who is your all time inspiration?
erm.. it change all times when reach different level of life..

2. Have you had a crush on me?
hahha.. at the moment no? future who knows? >.<

3. If you were to be stranted on a deserted island,who are the 3 blogging buddies you would take with you?Why?
sam , kc , shuen >>> chocx!

4. Where is the place you wanna go to the most?
singapore and aussie!! weee!

5. If you have only one wish to come true,what would it be?
to be with sumone im in love now..

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
sometimes..

7. What are you afraid to lose now the most?
both my really dearest dears

8. If you win 1$,what would you do?
depends on situation. lolx.

9. If you meet someone you love,would you confess it to him or her?
it depends on situation and status.. yeapzz..

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
caring , outrageous , lovely

11. What are the requirements that you wish for your other half?
holy , trustworthy , caring , understanding

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
backstabbers , bitches

13. Highlight of the week.
C3

14. If you have faults,would you rather the people around you point it out to you or you rather they keep quiet?
let them point it out if they wanna.. but i will still admit it at least i won't feel guilty..

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
God and family. never change.

16. Are you a shopaholic?
yesh when my bro pay me..

17. What's on your mind right now?
cheerleading' thingy

18. If you have a chance,which part of your character would you like to change?
my eating habbits.. wanna on diet!!

19. What's the last shocking thing that you see or heard?
nope.. except affections on my skin allergy..

20. What's bothering you lately?
my exam and my cheerleading thingy..

i tag.... ermm...
* kc
* mich my sweetest sis
* elicia the nuttz

raez | sick

2008-03-24T01:41:00.002+08:00

RAEZ fall SICK
can't go to school
=.="

HATE TAKING MEDI!!!
IT'S SUCKX!!

EMO

2008-03-23T18:29:00.002+08:00

so emo!!!!!!!! i'd been emo from this morning till now..
as you know, championship today! supposed my friend promise to go with me but last minute she told me that she got sumthing else to do and not able to make it. what the?!??!! ffk again!! that's like too last minute okie.. and some my others friends went dy.. darn!
from that moment onwards im emo till this point when im typing on this post.
i wonder how everything goes..
this may be my last time going for such thingy.. and most probably i can't go for cheer 2008(exams!!) next year i may not be in m'sia dy.. argh gosh! im kinda lost such great chance to go today =/
how i hope i can have my license now so that i can drive there without waiting for anyone's answer.. somehow i can still fetch my friends along.. too bad i have my babe but i can't drive it..
really really hope i can have my license now so i don't hafta think so much.. can go wherever places i wanna..
but i still gotta suckx for another 3months >.<

EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO
=.=" >.< =/ ): =.= -.- =( T.T

student Easter service

2008-03-23T00:43:00.005+08:00

went cineleisure with syee this afternoon. and well, supported CHARM. and erm... unluckily we caught by some people. guess what? they ask us to join some ribena "the perfect match" contest. and requested us to hold the ribena newest flavor bottles and took a photo of us. and?? join the contest =.=" kinda demanding but fine.. photo taken.. just for fun.. the pic is ugly and i looks fat in that pic. so people if u free, can go vote for me and syee at www.ribena.com.my on 26th march onwards. =/
went elianto bought eye liner and lip gloss. and syee bought her lips treatment sumthing.. then we rush to church for student Easter service.
is our first time having student service so far. we make a history! and it is great!! is a new beginning of we start a student service. keep on, church!!
there's performance bout easter.. 2 person accepted Christ. weee! somehow is like some normal services.. so after all everyone taking photos there.. and went for dinner with syee and her groups..
so im kinda tired..
argh no!!! it's tomorrow!! i wanna go cineleisure for championship but im still wondering who wanna go and... transport!! *sob sob* so tonight i gotta pray damn hard and hoping that i able to go tomorrow. =/
urgh! im lazy to blog larh..

today will be my happy day??

2008-03-22T12:57:00.002+08:00

i woke up late today!! since yesterday was good friday and church having services and i went.. im back home kinda late cause going supper after that. lolx. and so i slept late yesterday night.. hahha..
first thing i do when i wake up is to check mails and messages.. and start busy replying all (:
argh... syee coming to fetch me like in 2hours later and we going to the cineleisure.. supposed bringing my members there but erm... i can't wake this morning so they went themselves.. lolx.
*sorry girls*
by the way, championship tomorrow!! i hope i can go.. just i need transport..
"who wants to go please come look for me" ahem*
whether im going not, all the best to my dear and the team.. weeee!!
ohh, student easter service tonight! can't wait for that dy.. 1st time we having student easter service.. and i wonder how it could be.. hhmmm..
so i think i should go...... eat? shower? find my most suit outfit? make up?? and ciaoz...
lolx.
alright alright.. update you people bout my day tonight..

im tagged so i just do it

2008-03-21T19:25:00.001+08:00

001.Real name: Rachel Pang Poh Yee(i almost forgot i got a chinese name)
002.Nickname: raerae, raez, 'da jie', ketua/leader =.="
003. Married: NO..
004.Male or female: i got ass and boobs so what u think?
005.High school: SMK SB (suckx!)
006.College: next year will be..
007.Short or long hair: is bout to reach my butt so?
008.Are you a healthy freak: not really..
009.Height : 161 (im so short!!)
010.Do you have a crush on someone: i guess so..
011.Do you like yourself : not really. lolx.
012.Piercings: 3 on right and 1 on left (going to add on another 1)
013.Righty or lefty: righty

First*

014.Surgery: argh.. can't remember larh.. when im a kids. lolx
015.Piercing: 2 when std3 , 1 when f4 and 1 when f5
016.Person you see in the morning: me myself and i
017.Award: last month
018.Sport you join : swimming
019.Pet: i don't but my family members do.. =.="
020.Vacation: singapore 3months ago
021.Concert : i don't go concert except im on duty ( a dancer)
022.First crush : shhhhh..

currently:

023.Eating : ferrero rocher!!
024.Drinking: nothing
025.I'm about to : go to church for worship revival night and good friday service

Your Future*

026.Want kids: a son and a daughter (more than enough)
027.Want to get married: if i meet my mr. right
028.Careers in mind: no idea.. sumthing bout events maybe??

Which one is better*

029.Lips or eyes: erm.. lips..
030.Hugs or kisses: hugxx
031.Shorter or taller:nahh, of course taller..
032.Romantic or spontaneous: romantic??!?
033.Sensitive or loud: erm.. load?
034.Trouble maker or hesitant: trouble maker doesn't matter

Have you ever*

035.Kissed a stranger: nahh.. no..
036.Drank bubbles: what? bubbles??
037.Lost glasses/contacts: i throw it i don't lost
038.Ran away from home: i think no..
039.Liked someone younger: nehh..
040.Liked someone older: yeapzz
041.Broken someone's heart: quite sometimes
042.Been arrested : no no..
043.Cried when someone died : if not??
044.Liked a friend: yeapzz

Do you believe in*

045.Yourself: sumtimes =.="
046.Miracles: God makes miracles!!
047.Heaven: yeappzz
048.Santa Claus: believe when im a kids..
049.Magics: tricks!
050.Angels: yeapzz

Answer Truthfully*

051.Is there one person you want to be right now: sam? lolx. (he makes me laugh when i cry and he makes me cry when i laugh) =.="
052.Do you believe in God: yeapzz
053.Tag 5 people:

- dear sam ( do it again ;p)
- kc
- krystyle
- elicia
- ken

what a history exam

2008-03-21T15:18:00.000+08:00

early in the morning before i leave my house and wait for caryn, i took that short 15mins to review back my notes since im still early. ohh well, it brought back a lil memories of what i had studied yesterday. good news? (wait till the last part)
so during the short assembly time, i continue reading on my notes(hardworking huh?) and what? i slowly remember some points. lolx.
after enter the class we arrange our table again(is like a fight with the afternoon class students). for your information, my exam always never start on time. so somehow like some tradition..
ahaa.. guess what when i look at the questions? gosh! none of the question i know how to do and by the way it seems like what i'd studied all never comes out. darn! im stunning looking at the questions =.=" i tell you what, it suckx! when i look at friends around me, no one holding pen but lying on the table sleeping or day dreaming there.only a very small amount of them trying their hard to answer the questions(not more than 5 of them)
i look through the questions again and again hope there at least some questions i know. well, i answer few..
people around may thought i know how to answer all since i keep on writing on my text pad paper. alright, as you know i haven't finish writing my report so i do it at the mean time rather than waisting my time sleeping. at the end i able finish writing my report at the mean time so what im gonna do next is to type everything i'd written into my laptop and save in the thumb drive when i reach home. and then i can sleep on my lovely bed. hahha.
hhmmm.. i know im bad.. but what? i have no idea how to do all that questions and don't wanna waist day dreaming there.. so? continue to do my report!! weee! =.=||
p/s : dear, sorry for disappointing you bout it..
as elicia said, i got a good imaginary brain. to keep you update im currently creating a new dance with my friends as we invited by our studio branches in JB to go over there for some roadshow. so im gonna figure out some part and start edit and mix the songs we'd chose. well, while writing reports at the same time the whole dance keep fleshing out and i able to see the whole dance result we created with the songs together playing in my mind.
so i can use my brain for 2 different things at the same time? kinda extra ordinary huh? ;p whatever. im used to it. lolx. luckily i do not tap my legs and shake my body and head. that's weird dy..
okie, some of the part im not able to do it.. can't expect me to bring all documents and datas there right? what else more my laptop. lolx. *funny*
so.. that's what i did during my exam;p

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im a night cat??

2008-03-20T23:53:00.000+08:00

ahaa.. it's 12am now and im still awake!!
sum up i had spent 5hours lidat on my f4 history notes or whatever can be.. exam going 8hours later!!
5hours of study seems lots for me but i get nothing at the end.. i can't even remember a point ): i read and i forgot again.. >.<
can't expect me to remember all in once right.. so im thinking of how am i gonna 'die' then..
hope when i look at the questions some memories will flash back so i can answer the questions? ohh well, it sounds abit like mAgIc i know.. lolx..
well well well well... my mind really need rest and relax right now ohh yeahh.. seriously, im gonna go insane(i can't remember how many times i mentioned. can u?) hahha..
just finish half of my reports and gotta pass up this saturday. and peoples as you dunno, it's not for my school okie?? it's a part of my job yea.. okie, stop thinking too much of what reports im doing wei..
so out of exams, trainings, practices, dance classes, tuitions??? yeah, outta all of that, i realized im kinda free! weee! FREE!
life is getting happier and people who knows im kinda stress free now.. no burdens and worries.. so you should be happy for me right? so watcha waiting? come say CONGRATS to me! lolx (:
so it may be a good news for few of my listeners (great listeners i had there) and bad it is because seldom i will go look for u? aiyaa.. will i still look for u for fun, not worries ;) okie, maybe yam cha k? great?
think i gotta go sleep since i woke up like darn early today.. update tomorrow again?

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public holiday is not a holiday??!!

2008-03-20T17:23:00.000+08:00

as for you know, today is a public holiday. and yeahh.. but i don't.. hahha.. my school is off of course! my training never off. lolx.
early in the morning i wake around 5am get ready everything my coach came fetch me for training. so we reach shah alam around 6 15am. ohh, we are 15mins early! ahem* ohh well.. we did some warm up and started our training. as u know, next week is my competition. so im thinking of a better way to "die". alright. and after that my coach fetch me to sunway and i had my dance class.
so my half day gone lidat. o.O!
is about 11am++ and went breakfast with parents in KL. then i went shopping with bro. hahha. bought lotsa stuffs *bro the greatest!* so i think im gonna get fat sooner since bought lots junk foods and chocx T.T fine! do more exercise! weee!
so after back home, i start sitting in front of my computer and with my laptop by side.. guess what?? start updating songs in my phone and ipod. and start edit songs for ringtones. hehhe..
and nahh, start updating my blogs! so is about an hour left for me to get ready and going for dinner. hhmmm.. how i hope to stay at home for dinner. at least i can watch tv at the same time! lolx. anyway, think that's great! the happiest time still with my family (:
argh, friday tomorrow! having my history paper ): one objective and one subjective. and what? coming out all f4 topics so i think im dying off soon. tried to review back is like none of the point i able to remember. hhmmm.. im gonna burn the midnight oil today. no choice right..
so let's see what im gonna update again maybe few hours later?
hahha..

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my TUESDAY in school

2008-03-18T19:06:00.000+08:00

that's so boring in school today.. just having 1 maths paper today.. which is paper 1.. so it's objective! and yeahh.. i found out that i almost forgot all what i had studied last year.. * sob *
so no study today.. and everyone is chatting in a group and me as well..
and for while more me and friend lying on the table sleeping.. lolx.
ohh well.. im glad to meet cik. mang again. weee! that's the only teacher i miss the most during the whole holiday. since exam in going on and am not going spbt for duty and i can't meet her since she is not teaching my class any.. lolx.
and well, knowing that this saturday my school having merentas desa again. guess what?? my cheer teacher ask me to find 5 cheerleaders to cheer on that day and lead them into acrobat. oh gosh! im like " WHAT? " again.. so it's killing me.. exam is still on for another 2weeks.. and gotta practice that again? i where got so much time? argh no!
hhmm.. so im gonna find people to do that and im excluded.. and by the way i don't think im going toO.. so well.. let's see how..

school start - exam

2008-03-17T15:44:00.000+08:00

urgh! school started today and im having exam ): but what? i can meet my friends again! (:
having BM and BI paper.
BM is suckx to me and i don't really have points to put in * sob * hope result come out won't be that suckx.
and yeahh.. BI! my most like subject (: weee!
i finish a directed writing in half hour time and about 300++ words turn up. so im the one who wrote the longest article in my class. it's easy and i don't really hafta think much since some points are given and what i hafta to do is just give some details to expand it..... to paragraph??! hehhe..
so is like an hour left, most people in the class lying on the table sleeping... that's what happened in my class while exam still on! lolx.
when the exam end, everyone talking bout it.. and i found out most people think that's difficult. gosh! im like " what?? "
anyway, there's maths tomorrow. and its gonna suck my brain out. lolx (:

suckish

2008-03-17T00:35:00.000+08:00

i lose badly in my competition. so those who knows, please don't ask me again how's the result. it suckx! and i never expect that.
it's unbelievable.. and i never imagine that..
i needa find myself blameless now so stop asking me.. and yeahh, i gotta chill..
once i lose, i hafta suffer for another long periods of time..
i lose both.. so u should know what im talking bout..
and yeahh, im much alright now.. and im not gonna tell the result here..

* closed friends can ask me privately when my mood is fine *

so that's ur update. people out there, i know you guys great! im really alright now cause i don't wanna my dear to worry, so i hafta (:
hahha. seriously. that doesn't a matter dy k? cheers!

im addicted!

2008-03-16T22:57:00.000+08:00

hey!! hhmmm.. feel like im kinda easy to be addicted with sumthing right now.
let's see what im addicted to right now..

1. wretch!! ( my new blog and it's cool with password protected article! )
2. song >>> Look Me In The Eye ( gosh, im so in love with it! )
3. editing ( i have no idea how many photos i edited these few days )
4. sushi!! ( i can have sushi every day and night^^ )
5. dance ( hahha.. after i quit for like 2years+ and im hooked with it again )
6. shopping!! ( shops to release stresses. lolx. )
7. movies ( any nice movie will do. so if u thinking of going for a movie, remember me!! )

okie, that's all about i guess. so im kinda in a 'high' mood. maybe it is because i've no more burdens? or because i am set free? erm.. or im too stress over study and i gone crazy? hahha.. either..
i seldom will update here nowadayz. busy with exam and study ): or i posted it in my wretch either. so close friend can ask me for the link (: u're so welcome then. wee!

hurts

2008-03-12T02:41:00.000+08:00

dear, do you know that's hurt? and you hurt me do you know that? when im emo you're the one who cheer me but at the end you're the one who hurts me. how i hope that's not you but the fact it is. what else i can say?
at the moment when i found out there's something wrong, i feel like im the victim i'd been lied by you both, you both betrayed me.
either you can say im sensitive because im emo-ing, but the hurts never gone..
dear, can you please don't hurt me again???

memorable saturday

2008-03-10T14:14:00.000+08:00

sorry for the late post. by the way it represent 'saturday 8/3'
okie, here goes....
early morning ben fetches me around 10am sumthing together with shann and her friends. they are late due to some traffic jam and so we are late. everything confirm very last minute and everything just so unorganized you see. no one know the supposed plan what time should be there and where to meet and and all.
anyways, after we bought tickets we give them a buzz and look for them sumwhere in theme park. by then is like nearly 12pm after waiting 3 of them to change to dry clothes and all. had our lunch there and did some introduction since there's new friends.
after all we started our first rides at the pirates ship. some people getting dizzy and feel vomiting. that's just the beginning. greater stories behind;)
overall the rides are nothing special and bored but the fellowship was just so great y'know. laughing at one another snap photos like crazy. that's girl's business. hhmmm...
received dearest sam messages for may be he will be coming to meet up. and the youth left theme park around 4pm sumthing to pyramid. while waiting poh ee and ben at the atm, sam called and not more than a minute i saw him right in front. ahhaha. kinda excited. anyways, introduce him to my youth and my youth to him. erm... kinda stunning..
so they discussed bout the transport going back home. since there's only one car and there's 9 of us. some force to take buses or whatsoever back home; some even reaching home late. so embarrassing to let sam saw what had happened. and it can proved to sam the reason why im leaving. so it can be sumthing bad and good at times.
all this coincidence im blessed. i decided to follow sam to his church and cg by then. for your information is was my first time visiting City Harvest. i like the speaker. ahahhaa.. so im blessed;)
cut the story short, everything end around 10pm and only we had our dinner. and by 11pm++ they fetch me back home. so what is actually happened in between is all crazy-people-doing.
supposed a boredom and died day became fun and meaningful, blessed and exciting!!
thanks girls for such nice and sweet unforgettable memories.
thanks dear for making my day so blessed and meaningful and................ crazy??!?
hahha.. yeahh.. here's some photos uploaded and some not with me yet;)

we are at some kids ride and act like kids =.="
raez and shien * winkz * she's so lovely cute :)

nice editing? thanks lovely for such great job ya ^_^

puisan , teng , raez. the wet look after river rides.. so terrible..

raez and puisan some bored shot while waiting the rest on some rides..

ahahha.. no worries, it's clean alright.. just a lil blur..

raez and shann. wet wet..

dear sam and raez! dinner with him after going to church with him:)

stresses

2008-03-04T20:29:00.000+08:00

been stressed up recently. i mean when the begin of 2008.
either my study or ministry i have no idea. or both?
so i found out that im more hardworking than last year. yeah? i should.. and so im kinda left out my ministry.. anyway, sumthing hindering me continue to serve. i know it's bad and so not biblical but i got no choice. needa some times to chill. and will be better after all? i dare not answer this..
by the way, i gave up and everything's over. just to blame that cause im the eldest in the group. (exclude leaders)
that's so not good to be eldest you know. it's like all pressures and faults goes to you and your brain start blending inside and make u gone insane.
im not going to discuss more on this issue, all i want just do well in study and i will stop anything that will effect my study and anything that go against my plan. i tell you what, you are terrible and horrible when u start interrupting my life and you better watch out.
im not a good person when you start to dare me or sumthing. erm, anyone will do right? ahahha..
hope that i could have some times to update ya'll again.

Dato' dan Datin

2008-02-26T21:30:00.000+08:00

Dato' Jeff Pang dan Datin Jane. my bro and in-law.
my handsome Dato'. hahha. but Dato's getting fatter ;p

dinner with Dato' Jeff Pang

2008-02-23T00:48:00.000+08:00

today we had dinner with Dato' Jeff Pang aka my 2nd bro in blood sumwhere in KL. this is our cny dinner since he was so busy the whole cny. btw, his son aka my nephew became the main topic during the whole dinner though. he can laugh non-stop. hahha. everyone fighting to carry him. attracted by his sweet smiley face. is a HE.
dad carrying him. grandpa and grandchild. ehehee..
he sweeten my heart ;)

free writing

2008-02-21T01:01:00.000+08:00

argh! having some performance tomorrow. something bout the cny celebration.
supposed a no way, but i should be active since it's my last year in high school. enjoying!
hope im not gonna shake on stage since im not so good in acting. oh yeah, im acting in a drama. short drama. cheerleading better than this man..
gonna see myself dying on stage=.="
all the best everyone, who's acting in the drama with me. and to my beloved daddy kenny and bro wshing for their yoyo china presentation; dai kah jie angeline for her singing.
love ya, all...

blue week

2008-02-19T23:14:00.000+08:00

my mood is down,
and friends around me feeling upset,
i've no way what else i can do.
kinda heartbroken at this moment,
for sumthing unwanted and unexpected happened,
im lost in my way...
who can i tell?
and who should i tell?
while they're in dilemma and needa sumone to coax them.
i keep it all in my heart and remain silent,
i pretending im alright but im not actually,
i smile even when i don't wanna,
i laugh when im pretty hurt at times.
im telling myself all the way,
" im alright im fine "
but i lose while fighting with my mind battles.
i can't accept the fact why all that happened,
but still i needa accept all,
while im not willing to.
im trying my very best,
to stand firm at this point,
friends around still needs me,
my words of encouragement...

to my dearest meimei

2008-02-19T23:02:00.000+08:00

deep inside my heart,
i have this guilt,
that i think i hurt my meimei.
i know that deep inside her heart she's feeling sad,
and kinda lost at times,
but still she smiles to me since the beginning,
assuming she's alright.
i know that she's hurt,
i know that i treated her kinda strict recently,
for some causes...
people around agreed for what im doing is right,
she told me the same..
but still im feeling bad bout it.
i'm happy that she don't blame me at all,
but appreciate for what i did to her.

thanks meimei for your understanding,
hope you're always happy:)
sorry...

Valentines

2008-02-15T00:31:00.000+08:00

at this point, i darn frustrated. not anyone making me into that, but the day making me into that.
u got the point, 14 Feb - Valentines Day.
supposed a sweet and romantic day but it's more a embarrassing day to me. went out with my gang of friends to celebrate valentines day. suckx. traffic jam everywhere and everything's like double the price. thank God it is just once a year!
was stop by at this sumwhere restaurant after a short shops. while we chatting till so high waiting the foods to be serve on table, we realized people around were staring at the same direction and start shock-ing self, we curious toO and look back. dang, my friend's bestest aka my not so close friend (a guy) holding a 999 stalks roses with some balloons and Ferrero Rocher decorated bouquet walking in (hey dude, where's ur guts comes from?). for your information, people around were actually talking bout him. ish! by the way, he walks towards me and gave me that. so u think he likes me or he's my boy for sure? right. it was my friends all shared money bought me that. my friends so sweet and nice! love them love them!! muackxx..
hmmm.. we enjoy the dinner though a lil pricey. that's fine, important still the fellowship. yeah right..
somehow i gotta hold that big bouquet of roses+balloons+chocs shops in the shopping complex. it's so lame ya know.. hope i didn't met anyone i know.. it might gotta lmao..
finally i reach home, thought should have can relax who knows there's even more bouquets of flowers and chocz and bears bouquets and gifts in all those nice gift boxes in my house... argh headache! i have no way idea where to place them. somehow my house more like a florist now..
but still, thanks people for being so sweet and nice and romance??!??! i love it all..

thanks :
G1 : jasmine a , celine , kenny , kendrick , mkuan , yan , kwei , pwen , sarah , angeline , michelle c
G2 : pristine , jasmine l , alex p , jay l , jason t , carmen , kelvin
G3 : yvonne , skian , wilson , wquan , sharon , sam , derrick , michelle q

and those if i left out ur name im sorry.. i might have not remember who is who now.. toO much to mention.. no offense k? always remember u guys:)

Regrets & Upset

2008-02-12T20:49:00.000+08:00

sumthing sad if u're not able to meet up with ur friends before u leaving to another place. ain't?
i hope to meet up with sumone recently. but never able to due to sumone's busy-ness. but is alright. a place which i seldom go.. a place that i visit once a year.. but is gone.. just hope before im leaving to another place, i able to visit that place again nevertheless visit this person. hoping by that time sumone's free.
for what i know, i will regret if i couldn't meet this person at least once before im leaving. either this person comes or i go. anyway, i will try my very best to visit that place again and visit the person at
times. after all, im satisfied..
a good friend to me on msn.. meet once but not closed at all by that moment... once closed but never meet before...
anyhow, that's how i feel..
out of that, i gotta visit all my friends for the very last time before i leave.. specially those in S'pore. they know who they are. no mention. hehhe..
if this person know who is he/she, no offense k? just a feeling..

A Bored but Exciting CNY

2008-02-12T19:51:00.000+08:00

btw, im still kinda in cny mood. 2 days before cny, me and family went JB. my hometown. met my lovely young cousins and somehow they made me more like a kid there. hahha. play like a mad. help out grandma preparing some stuffs for 2 days later. and fetch grandma to the Giant most nearby to get some soft drinks. duh, i don't drive k.. my bro drives:)
1st day of cny midnight 12, we were all still awake! playing fire crackers. erm... anyway, we enjoy the midnight fires! the sky brighten up with colorful fireworks and stars above shine like diamonds. fyi, u can hardly get more than 5 stars in KL but i get the whole sky of stars in hometown.
time flies and it was around 2am, we gonna go sleep and wake early later on. hahha. everyone fight for bath room just to.... bath. yeah, bath! everyone's wearing so red and smiling to one another. wee! cut the story short, received quite many ang paoz. lolx. in the afternoon, me and family left going back to KL. i wish to stay for a day more but we're going to Penang next day, so gotta go back and pack new cloths.
reached KL exactly dinner time. we get a nice bath and went out again for dinner. tired tired. we had dinner in some japanese restaurant and we had a japanese lou sang. it's nice, can try;) but kinda pricey. hehhe..
never get a nice sleep that day. cause i miss my new laptop toO much. online all the while since been outa touch with my contacts. hmmm.. it's 4am! now only is the time for me to get pack my stuffs and ready for the next tirp.
it's a restless night since i'd only not more than 2hours sleep. woke in the morning 6 30am and left around that. the evil i got my breakfast half way on the high way. u know, many peoples fight for tables and chairs. the whole place a crowd and no mention is kinda dirty. since i don't really eat breakfast type of person, i had a drink and that's all. oh yeahh, i had some sweets! wee..
never know what's going on in between, i can tell u im asleep all the way till i reach penang. hehhe..
again we take our lunch in Gurney. the same restaurant same food ordered. oh, hahha, we reach penang around 1pm! drive all the "snake" way into Batu Ferringi. again we staying Park Royal. while checking in, called Joshe and funny he dunno whose calling him at first. erm, my fault. im using different number calling him. hahha. fine..
had a short chat about izit able to meet up that few days.
all while, im stuck in the hotel for almost everyday every time. stay at the beach there doing nothing sleeping on the deckchair looking the birds flying in the sky and boats sailing..
we got buffets in our hotel. huhu.. raining! but worth it. there's some cultural shows that night. it's great and i miss it now.. btw, slept late. hahha..
somehow my friend reached Penang but staying kinda far. not able to meet her. she's going with big gangs of families. nevertheless we doing the same thing. who knows my both aunts came visit us. at first my so call sis aka my aunt she called me and have a short conversation asking where am i now doing what there etc. an hour later surprisingly they were right in front of us! argh so touching! they came up all the way from Ipoh just to visit us! sadly at night we gotta go dinner with dad's bestest. around 6 30pm, aunts they all went back to Ipoh. and we get prepare ourselves and going dinner. is kinda an excitement to meet Wen Min and Wen Lian again. oh, also Xu Min! they are all my childhood friends. we chat from the beginning of dinner around 8pm till like 1am non-stop. kakaa..
straight to the point, the days after dinner, darn bored! and worse, my complexion getting darker than before. oh my my.. i wonder how long i gotta take to make my complexion fair again. sobbie..
anyway, back to KL now. missing Penang. =.=" school started and fall sick! gotta COLx. Cry Out Loud.

story to be continue...................

random post after Sports day before CNY

2008-02-04T23:23:00.000+08:00

oh yay... sports day end! at last..
everything turn back to normal now.. can online again. can study like normal.. can go to school like usual.. can relax during holiday! woot!
as i said, sports day end.. that means there's no more practices for cheerleading and no more stay backs after school. skipped tuitions quite sumtimes. this really killing me u know. i didn't even study for a lesson during this period of hard practice. argh! gotta rush all homeworks. darn!
anyway, cny coming very very soon. is like still 2 more days. tomorrow gotta skip school. no!!! going back to hometown. urgh! i shouldn't be mad but just my exams right after cny.
at the moment should really pray hard for helps.
relax relax... time to relax... i needa enjoy my cny in penang with maybe friends there if im free or they're free... relax my mind only try to concentrate on studies. ehehhe...
Happy Chinese New Year, all... have a blessed and memorable one ;)
see ya'll after all..

frustrated moment

2008-01-30T18:47:00.000+08:00

argh!! been keeping real out of touch with my computer dy. what a bad news. while im transferring some files from my laptop to my computer, my computer suddenly shut down and my laptop shut down followed by then. gosh! what's next? i can't on 'em anymore. so frustrated! and now both laptop and computer sent to 'hospital' for some 'treatments'. urgh! what a good day i can use my bro's laptop to update abit.
been real frustrated and mad with my cheer team. never get to know who are they. they are like a devil to me. goodness. i found out that actually those chinese-mixed-malay friends much more better the chinese friends. at least they know what is obey; what is commitment; and what is respect. they are much understandable. chinese always impulsive. they never think properly before they do sumthing. im serious. i mean some amount of people, not at all. sorry if it is offensive but that's the truth.
my head getting so much bigger nowadayz. im standing in between the malays and chinese; teacher and them. argh!what a broken cheer team. i never imagine what will happen after sports day. sports day tomorrow and everyone still in a mess and blur. can u imagine that? been quit sick recently.
anyway, forget bout all the stupidities. thanks for the opportunities. i get to know a bro better. robin! hahha. why? hmmm.. a secret. lolx. anyway, he's a good guy, good bro, good friend. never regrets of knowing him. he's understandable. is my pleasure to have him as my good friend in my life. never know if we can be a better best friend.
wait for my updates. luv all.....

Healing Sunday + RaeZ's Happy Day

2008-01-13T22:20:00.000+08:00

what a happy day :)
today is a wonderful day. why? lolx. we having a healing service today and we invited Pastor PN to come over. what a privilege.
is a combine service today. and im on duty for ushering. early morning Ben take the initiative fetch me to church. after have a meeting with my usher team, i went breakfast with YC. had a great time fellowshipping with her. yay!
time for duty! weet! the ushers have a short prayer before duty started. after Peter assign our duties to us, and so we start duty. me and Kar Bee were assigned to distribute bulletins and to welcome them at the 2nd floor. we saw lotsa visitors coming.. and Pastors come from different places' Hope churches.. also there's quite amount of Hope Singapore members joining us.
the church is full of people. we actually have not enough sits for everyone. bulletins not enough too. anyway, the church is pack and crowd.
while busy distributing the bulletins and welcoming, i saw sumone so familiar. when she told us she's from Hope Singapore, i start wondering is she Pastor Jasmine.. what happened is that i went up and ask some members is she Pastor Jasmine but so sad no one knows. thank God, Kar Lock take the initiative to ask her. hahha. fortunately, Pastor Jasmine actually able recognized me as in me and few members visited Hope Singapore and attended youth service in the nov of 2007. im surprised but so happy at the same time. had a short conversation with her.
this reminded me of im actually do still remember all the points that she preached that day.
im so impressed by her preaching that day. and so my life changed again after the service. become happier nowadayz. im so blessed! thank God for the opportunity.
Pastor PN together with Pastor Simon and Pastor Willie, they prayed for the sicks. at that moment i felt the power in our midst. i think we are all toO healthy so there's no critical sickness and no live miracles happen.
praise the Lord! we have 12 new converts today!! the whole heaven and earth rejoice!! hope to see them serve consistently and able to grow stronger spiritual life.
im graduating soon. so all that i hope is that i hope i can do as much as i can for my youth. im not sure will i go to college group or stay back. since we can see some results at the moment, i want it to be continue. that the youth will grow stronger and bigger with quality. i know i can hardly bring my friends to cg or ss since we are all busy with studies. fighting on battles.
hey, is spm man.. no jokes..
in another hand, is kinda weird for me to share with sumone much younger than me like 4 or 5 years younger. can hardly communicate with them though.
so... i will contiue to pray hard. and have faith in Him always.. i will have some breakthroughs.. and amazing things will happen!

hmmm.. im lil drunk now.. the alcoholic =.=" lolx.

Everything Changed

2008-01-10T01:35:00.000+08:00

everything happened without anyone knowing it.. without any sign.. without informing..
2008.. toO much things happened on me.. which is out of my expectation..
i've no way know since when i became AJK of F5 in my SPBT club.. i have no way know since when i become the admin of the Canaan's group.. i have no way know we have a crush on each other which we are actually very best friend and best partner.. i have no way know i have sumthing on with some leaders which not so happy.. i have no way know i will go tuition so suddenly and so hardworking.. i have no way know i decided to not online so often.. i have no way know i'll change my ambition and not gonna study law..
getting more mature getting more things to worried of. hafta make lotsa of critical decisions. time to grow.
im i dilemma now.. i made a decision which i never ever thought of i'll make one day. summore it is just so soon. felt hurt and lost. hope everything turn to be so fine after i finish this post. hope im alright.
anyhow, i know im growing up.. and im experiencing it.. it is somehow a very tough moment of being mould..
i just hope everything soon will be fine.. i mean FINE.

Higher Education Exhibition 2008 + 1st Outing of 2008

2008-01-07T23:17:00.000+08:00

i went MV with Caryn few days ago. the first outing in 2008. hahha. we actually not going there for shopping. we went there for Higher Education Exhibition 2008.
is a quick decision we made of going there. we planed to go there early. worried there's a crowd.
we had erm.......... breakfast?? hahha. we had some drink around my mom's office before my mom fetching us to Kepong KTM Station.
okie, we taking KTM there. the best way;) so far, this my first time hanging out with Caryn. feeling so great and fun! i was carrying my guitar along for im going to cg straight after that. wow, never know my guitar is actually not that heavy. hahha.
back to the point, exhibition start at 11am and we were there at 10 30am. we walk around and look around. and we bought something(i guess)? i bought 2 guitar picks. and... i forgot what we did there =.="
around 12pm we get into the exhibition hall. we registered and get a copy of newspaper bout some introduction of this edu fair. somehow it's a mini edu fair. not much colleges/universities there.
we both ended spot on this university - LIMKOKWING University. something which out of my expectation. i didn't know actually there's not just study bout multimedia creativity and design. there are also mass comm, sound and music design, business management, hospitality and tourism and so on.
me and Caryn have the same interest in studying mass comm. and we both decided to go over there study. hmm.. though is kinda far from our place, but that's fine. we both can actually stay in the campus there.
more details please log on http://www.limkokwing.co.uk for more informations.
ehehhe...
after all, time for lunch! supposed we decided McD but still had our lunch in Secret Recipe. we treat it as a high tea. a pricey high tea. hmmm... it's okie. is not about the form, but the fellowship. we took quite some photos together. nice picx!
since time rushing me, we had a quick walk and visited The Garden. all branded shops located there. but nice designed building.
anyway, Caryn will stay there untill her sis came over to company her. and i took KTM switched to LRT back to Paramount for cg.
i think i can't have much hanging out with friends sooner. gotta fight on battles. maybe 11months later? im set free then :)
thank God i have such wonderful neighbor+schoolmate and room mate+course mate? hahha. that's even interesting!
i will try to update more if i happen to sit right in front of my computer. see u guys... soon!

New Year Eve's random picxie

2008-01-07T00:19:00.000+08:00

hey! here are some pics about our New Year Eve's steamboat cg at Pst. Simon's house. and by then had service in church. though not much photo with me, but that's so memorable and fun! so missing it:)

Raez and Angeline. this may be her last time joining us for school gonna start and she gotta go back to far far away to her campus. hope that she can join us more.

Wen Li and Raez. that's toO much for me to talk about her;) she somehow abit blur sumtimes =.=

Yoke Ching and Raez. ACL and the emo kids. hahha. Canaan's ACL and Canaan's admin.

the emo kids Raez , the killer Angeline , the dead Yoke Ching. i guess we were toO bored by that time.. hehh..

Raez and Shann. mentioned bout her toO many times. hahha. Canaan's admin and Canaan's treasurer. bluek*

yeah! steamboat cg the best! thumbs up thumbs up! yummy~ Happy New year!!!!

Wen Li , Elicia , Raez. welcome Elicia! hope that she can join us more:)

Raez and Derrick. he's much taller now! hmm.. i think Poh Ee jealous-ing..

Raez and Jayz. we both got the different hair style compare to the last photo we taken together. the blackies ;p

Raez and Poh Ee. he's my kind+loving+concerning+lazy+tall+cute+lame bro.. he's younger than me! ehehhe.. but he's toO tall.. u never guess his age. lolx.

Michelle , Raez , Elicia.New year New friends. welcome joining youth! hope to see u guys more ya~

hmm... that's about all. New year New brand start ^_^

stressful 2008

2008-01-03T21:39:00.000+08:00

2008! new year brand new start. that can be mean im getting older. lolx. time flies darn fast just an eye blink.
2008 is a very challenging year for me. what's that mean? challenges = pressure+stress.
im 17 a few months later. finally. i gotta face lotsa exams and spm! gotta make lotsa choices on which way im going for my better future. i gonna graduate soon. it may be my last year serving in youth. that's sumthing very sad for me though i feel uncomfortable sumtimes with sumone for what they had done to me.
anyway.
since 1st Jan 2008, i feel very stress and pressure in almost every areas. i felt that everything and everyone going against me. whatever decision i made, there must sumone or sumthing trying to stop me or disagree with me. i feel insecure in all this. and that, i start doubting and getting hot temper and frustrating. i may hurt some peoples but this is not what i desire to do. i just can't control myself. hope im not psychopathy(again =.="). i don't work well under pressure. so if u're reading this and u know it u should know what to do. u know who u are well.. erm.. what im trying to say is that i need some of "me" time i need some spaces for myself. i don't hope anyone comes interrupting it. after all i think(hope) should be better.
im now looking forward to tuition. hope that going through some tuitions able to help me up abit in my studies and that i able to catch up. i gonna pray hard ask God takes away all my laziness so that i will be more hardworking and wisdom to understand what my teacher had taught me. i just hand over everything to Him for Him to lead me through. He has a wonderful plan for me.
i also face some challenges from some leaders. study well and serve well. but leaders, don't ever try to compare me with others. everyone has their limitation. i hope they can be more understandable.
erm.. i dunno how to continue it.. im depressed..
my tears can't stop flowing out from my eyes. whatever i say, is nothing i said. i do try to spare my thoughts with them but it doesn't works. the feedback is that im rebellious.. im throwing emotions.. i should check my spirit. what are they trying to say " i forgive and forget. hope u know u're wrong and do better next time " ahem*

i talk to him just now.. he's actually very understandable most the time. i respect him. i listen to him. but this time he don't get my point. worse thing is that he got the wrong point. i did not mean what he said. anyway, he misunderstood me. i have no words to continue with him. i will do what he asked. but i really hope he'll understand from my side or our side. yeah, will think we are all imperfect sheeps. im not demanding anything from her.. sumtimes not only the sheep is wrong, shepherd can be wrong toO.
hopeless at the moment. that's the different between leader and member. leaders always support leader. members support both side. i just hope everything will goes better. i know ur goods why u are doing all so, but not just focus on it, but care bout others feeling would be even better.
time loosening up abit. i might go insane by then.

oh Lord, i pray that You'll send sumone who can really listen to me and understand me better. im really stress right at the moment and i hope to find a right person to talk to. this is sumthing serious. and Lord i pray that You'll give me a peaceful heart and a clear mind so that i won't think that much. i know im getting insane now. also Lord i wanna pray that my leaders will know me better and care bout how i feel. i find out a difficulty talking to them and spare a thoughts with them. Lord i pray that they able to understand me well and not giving me so much of pressure. Lord, take my pressures away so that i can have a better life to continue study better. Lord, i really need sumone for me to talks to, to release my stress. Lord, gimme a happy heart so im not frustrating anymore. Lord, i know You're listening to me. i need You now Lord. Lord, help me and lead me for i know Your always wonderful. Lord, im waiting for Your answer..

Happy New Year! 2008!

2008-01-01T02:31:00.000+08:00

hahha.. Happy New Year!
this evening im having a steamboat new year cg with my youth members in Poh Ee's hse aka Pst. Simon's hse. me, YC, Angeline and Wli went there earlier to help out prepare the foods and all for steamboat later. so... we reach there around 4 30pm.. and our cg start at 7 30pm. we thought we might not able to have enough time to prepare but who know we ended finish preparing at 5 30pm. hmm... that's fast huh? hahha..
since no one reaching yet.. we enjoy watching some hong kong tv series with aunt. Lai Eng.. of course! some girls business.. guess what?? crazy different types of photos!
slowly around 7pm++ we can see them coming.. hahha.. and we have few visitors joinng us!! yeah!! so.. we had a great and wonderful time together.. nice fellowshipping with one another.. a very warmth new year eve's. we were so glad to have Pst. Simon and Pst. Willie with us!
day is getting late and we start helping out doing some cleaning.. and we have to rush back to church for countdown service! woot! this is the time we waiting for!
before the service start.. we actually gathered in a small room for some discussion. our UL - Joe actually is the MC of the night! and he needs some of ours help of doing some distributing some balloons to everyone. is one of the part of our special countdown.
the service started with some high praise. wow. that's really high and im getting even higher. hahha. i jump alot than usual. and a video rewind of 2007. showed some pics of some events we had in 2007. hahha. sweet memorable! and short sharing by Pst. Simon. i actually didn't hear much of it. cause the youth is busy. i mean BUSY. we had meeting in front of toilets. yeah, TOILETS!! bout the distributing thingy and passing poppers to respective leaders. time running out so fast! seriously fast. didn't know is actually already 11pm++. hahha.
oh, that's the climax! everyone so excited starting to write down their wishes and hopes of 2008. and start blowing balloons followed by instructions. yeah, no one know what's going later except the MC.
by then.. everyone holding balloons in the middle of the hall and waving it. so nice! then leaders holding a football coming out from the stage down to the middle of the hall like some football stars. hahha. what they gotta do is to kick the football the the goal(which is a board writing a big 2008). everyone cheering and shouting. anyway, it's a mini football...match??!? but is ain't easy to kick on it. lolx.we requested the song leader to lead us in some songs again to countdown. when everyone getting so high and MC started to count on from 10 according to the international timing. oh yea!!

10..... 9..... 8..... 7..... 6..... 5..... 4..... 3..... 2..... 1..... pop! bang!

some ribbons and papers spread out from the poppers and all flying all around the hall.. bursting the balloons.. hahha.. everyone start to throw ribbons or papers either to one another.. some crazy taking photos like us.. hahha.. anyway, i left earlier than everyone for i gotta go back.
and what? met Mich at the car park and we hooked up in the mood of NEW YEAR. chat till like around 2am(face to face not on the phone, okie..). hahha. and now im ended up here right in front of my computer uploading photos and transferring photo files to my laptop. lolx.
exciting things coming on tmr!

oh, sorry for not replying everyone's messages. toO much! anyway, thanks for u guys' wishes. and Happy New Year! may all of u have a wonderful year ahead. God Bless, all....

Service Team Dinner 2007

2007-12-31T00:48:00.000+08:00

one year once service team dinner! this the day im waiting for so long....... and here's the day!
this year abit special because it is organize by me.. and this is my first time organizing it.. so i actually have no experiences. lolx.
thank God, there's a very good leader - Alvis guiding me and help me through. so it seems to be easy organizing a dinner. hahha.
is actually all in a mess and in rush. due to lotsa church events going on like convention.. Christmas service.. Matthew and Friends.. by the way, im actually send out e mail to all department leaders at last minute and im not sure is everyone read it. by then i went to pangkor for some trip and just back yesterday. thank God for Gale that he willing to help out calling to make a reservations since he's actually not familiar with PJ. but he do still find out the number and all and call up. thanks! of course the most important - appreciation time! all the gifts reward prepared by Kar Bee. and i told her what to buy and how many to prepare at the eleven hour. appreciate what she prepared. sumthing new and creative.
prayer works prayer works! God is leading me all the way.. can see how things to be done and to be settled.
we somehow had our service team dinner at Vietnam Kitchen. at least sumthing new. and gladly 26 of 'em turned out! wow wow! i never expect that much;p
due to some 'technical' problem, we supposed to have some ice breaking and a very short drama acting to pull one another closer and to know each other better rather than just stick to their own friends. cause we thought the food may be serve kinda slow. who know they serve darn fast. plans failed. but sumthing wonderful, we actually divided them into groups and so they were all sitting in groups. so yea, they were all messed up and they get the opportunity to know one another better. that's great huh~
the food.............. not bad. maybe i just don't really like Vietnamese's style..
hahha. we actually had still drama acting at the end after everyone finish their food. what they hafta to do is to show love. i mean God's love.. not BGR nor BBR nor GGR. all of them seriously act. and can u imagine urself acting in a restaurant? for me i don't think i dare to.. but they did! gosh! i never imagine that man..
still love this part - appreciate moment!! yay!!
everything is a surprise. i didn't know i got this best initiative rewards. im like "huh? WHAT? me? kidding?". and i went out.. my team leader - Kar Lock said sumthing about me.. and by that time my tears almost drop.. no jokes man.. at the end.. im requested to give those tokens to our respective department leaders. registration:Chee Chuan ; communion:Pei Kuan ; usher:Kar Lock, Gale, Chek Ban ; and the higher rank usher leader: Alvis! i do speak some words to describe these few leaders. but when comes to Alvis i can hardly control my emotion of wanna to COL(cry our loud). lolx. not that seriously kia.. i have toO much to thanks him and describe how good he is.
by the way, time is running out and everyone start to pay me for meals. we ended bill for rm519. wow wow. but Alvis paid extra rm100. that's his final blessing to all of us in 2007. lolx.
erm.. just sumthing simply short. im not in the mood of blogging. im sick like a zombie.
but this is a very memorable dinner for me. at least i knew even more bros and sis in my service team;)

here's some words for my most appreciate leader - Alvis.
thanks for guiding me and leading me when the first step i stepped into usher team. u never gave up of me but keep encouraging me. u keep pushing me forward so that i able t grow up. u impressed me the most with all ur kind loving and sacrificing acts. u always cheer me up whenever u saw me and so i able to cheer others up. when im sick u never lemme goes for duty even there's not enough usher. u care! i'd been lost for a very period due to some health problem. u're so understanding and lemme rest for a long time till im healed. during that periods of struggles, u do always call me up concerning bout me, encourage me and pray for me. u gave me lotsa opportunities in serving the usher team. though i'd lost for such long period of serving but u still gave me this reward - best initiative. i don't think i deserve it. still thanks, anyway.. u gave me a memorable birthday celebration. i think im the blessed one among all ur ushers.. whenever i did wrong u say is okie.. nevermind.. thanks for ur forgiveness. i know im stubborn sumtimes.. but hahha.. u're just like my big bro u know.. thanks for ur faithful and sacrificial serving. thanks for all things that u'd done to me and i really appreciate u. i'll continue to serve faithfully.
God Bless u abundantly:)

My Memorable Moment

2007-12-27T00:29:00.001+08:00

hmmm.. can u see it's a Christmas tree that stick together with 8 stars? lolx. this a Christmas card made by youth for our UL and AUL - Joseph and Ngee Sun. all the stars behind have our signature. anyway, this is a incomplete one ;p
raez and windy aka wli. hahha. her new hair style. hmm.. what u think of her hair? she makes me look cuter when taking photos. lolx.
angeline , raez , shann. we are so glad that angeline coming back to join us again after been lost for a moment. hahha. hmmm.. she better don't run away again =.=
raez and angeline. i like her hair style. can u imagine a cute girl trying to be a tb? hahha. yea, she is! can see her spikes? i did it man...
raez and she mei. no mention, she's pretty. she's good in designing. toO bad, she no longer joining youth. sobbie..
raez and jin chuan. hahha. he was our daddy in the youth. anyway, he graduated from being a daddy in youth..
pe , raez , shann. bros and sis forever! pe is the tallest in the youth.. also the youngest.. he's funny and lazy.. hahha.. he looks way way smarter that day;)
raez and eugene! brother bear :) he's a kind and friendly bro.. i call him 'dai lou'. blek*
syee , raez , shann. sister forever! we had been serving together kinda long time. hang out together.. been through the high and down together.. toO bad syee no longer in youth. but our relationship never end!
raez and ken. he's cute.. he's friendly.. he's kind.. he's funny.. he's helpful.. hahha.. nice cooperating with him during the maf thingy and of that we know each other even better. this is our first photo taken together;) memorable! err.. ken taller than me?!?! ask him and u know ;p
hide and seek. we trying out all funny funny post.. and this one of the result.. hehhe..
this is one we trying to act sumthing cute. but we failed??!? hahha..
nahh.. this is the proper post.. yo.. we're in the hall.. bored during Hope carnival. lolx. we actually not involving anything.. so we ended taking photos to *shoo* our tiresome..raez and samuel. erm.. we accidentally know each other cause of mis-recognizing. hahha. by the way, no regrets of knowing him. and yea, i gotta learn much from him of leading p&w. lolx.

Memorable Christmas. wonderful Christmas time....

2007-12-27T00:03:00.000+08:00

hahha. im still getting very high and i dunno why.
anyway.
had a wonderful Christmas celebrating with my church members. we had a combined Christmas with Hope KLCC and Hope Serdang in Menara Yayasan Tun Razak.
though not much performances had performed. but the important is the fellowship with one another. i met some others bros and sis from others centers. so happy! and took lotsa of photos. hahha. so what? that's me okie..
after lunch and all, me, shann, angeline and yc went to t for some..... some..... Christmas shopping?!?? since it is a Christmas. have no idea why we are going. we decided to take monorail and lrt back to pj and go to uncle khai' open hse. that's good experience. i taught them how to take monorail and lrt. taught them how to buy tickets. hahha. nice fellowshipping squeezing in the train. lolx.
wow. my first time carrying so many presents alongside shopping. people passing by wondering sumthing going wrong with me. hahha. or they jealous-ing? oppss....
by the way, i actually have no much time going out to buy present for everyone. just i bought a few for those whom im going to their Christmas parties and cousins. but still i bought some candy canes for everyone.
this year Christmas i received more than what i expected. somehow im so touched. some are those whom im not clsed with them. just talk to each other once or twice. i didn't prepare anything for this group of people cause there's toO much for me to buy(so sumtimes is not good to be that famous man..). indeed, i didn't expect anything from them even a sweet. but still things happened. some of them bought me presents. i feel so embarrass when they find me all the way in the hall just to gimme the present and im giving them nothing. gosh! how can it be? some of them even bought me some pricey presents. sorry friends.. so i think i should doeble theirs next year. God is great! the presents i received are all my favorites and needs. so i tell u what! God knows what u want! amen!!
anyhow, this year Christmas was the best memorable Christmas! oh... can't wait for next year Christmas!!

Merry Christmas!

2007-12-24T00:46:00.000+08:00

SUNDAY!! as usual.. i go to church in the morning with my parents..
but i did not join my youth for lunch today! i went lunch with my parents and straight go to Menara Yayasan Tun Razak for some performance rehearsal. nah, im not performing anything. just my parents they have a song presentation by the mandarin family group. we reach there around 2pm. when we get into the hall, i felt like im going into the oven. somehow like im the cake baking in the oven. no air-cond! wait for everything to set up and stuffs. they ended start rehearsal at 4p. what the! i never imagine how i can stand the hot there.
anyway, im there to be more like a babysitter. im taking care of kenneth! he's just so cute! he has a cool man looks.. polite and quiet make him more like a girl =.=" i'd been taking care of him for like 3hours.
and yea, me and mina running up and there to buy drinks. hahha. great time fellowshipping with mina;) that makes me know her even better :)
rehearsal ended around 5 30p. and dad never get tired of it. he brought us to KLCC for shopping(again) =.=!! bought lotsa stuffs and presents.
okie, it reminded me sumthing.
" sorry all my beloved friends, i did not have that much time buying everyone a Christmas presents. sick for a moment; hide at home can't go anywhere; since im just back from MNC. do not misunderstand i do not remember u or else, i owe u an apology. but still i have sumthing for everyone;) for those who do receive my Christmas present u're blessed. lolx. seriously no jokes. and thanks people who bought me a present or u'd given to me. im so appreciate it! sorry no offense if u do not receive mine. i double it next year k? see some of u guys the going on days! "
let's see what's going with the Christmas decorations. i like the Christmas decoration in KLCC's main hall. not the tall Christmas tree. but the 2 snowmen on the both side with a non-leaves-tress tied up all the blue shining lights. MidValley - such like a fairy tales. i mean.. it is. children will love it and adults will like it. recall back childhood moment! 1U - big animate drummer boys. kinda fairy tales. it reminded me the drummer boy toy in some Barbie movie. oh yeah.. never forget s'pore! the bestest Christmas decoration i'd seen this year. so miss it! all along Orchard Road there's nice Christmas decorations and all so different! and the Bible verse John 3:16 on a big tall board. blue lights along the road. that's so a blue Christmas! all the s'poreans, u should be happy at this point cause i love ur country even more nowadayz.
at this second, im still inviting friends to my combine Christmas service with Hope KLCC and Hope Serdang at Menara Yayasan Tun Razak with thousand plus of peoples. hope any of them could be able to join me and i pray so.
that's all i can tell today. continue after Christmas;) lolx...
I wanna wish YOU a Merry Christmas from the bottom of my heart....

A Fun Creative Christmas CG

2007-12-24T00:23:00.000+08:00

wow. have a such wonderful Christmas CG on saturday. oh, never forget bout a meaningful youth day camp!
youth day camp started on thursday and ended on saturday. we had a great time fellowshipping and lunch with Pastor Willie. camp end so greatly in the afternoon. by then, we were all so busy for the next section - Christmas CG!
everyone start preparing. hmmm.. though not so much people attending so it sounds the atmosphere may not be that good. hahha. u actually wrong! it is just so fun and exciting!! the atmosphere did not pull down cause of lacking people joining but even greater! we sang praises and Christmas songs lead by raez aka me.. fun games prepared by shann and yc.. special moment created by raez aka me and helper wli.. refreshment prepared by pe..
not to mention.. im getting so 'high' when leading songs. or im actually that 'high' when the cg first started. whatsoever. i sang out of some pitches due to my sore throat and jumping part. here comes the special moment! okie, is not that special actually but meet the objectives - Christmas. i prepared some cards in star shape. before that, wli do ask what does Christmas mean to us. and we heard lotsa opinions and stories. by then, i distributed the cards to everyone and requested to write a wishes or words of encouragement to the person on our right. at that moment, everyone just so concentrating writing wishes on the cards. so in mood! after that i collected it back, messed up all the cards, thrown all cards on the floor and guess what? find their own cards. lolx. so then we end our CG with some refreshments. hahha.

To The ONE I Appreciate The Most

2007-12-21T00:15:00.000+08:00

at the moment right now.. have a very strong feelings that wanna tell this person sumthing.. is a bro.. yea..

he's a very good leader.. thank God for his faithfully serving and leading HIS people all the way without complaining a word.. he's a missionaries and that's what he wanna be.. he's funny maybe not so kinda.. 70% of my faith he build it up and 30% by his guys.. his words always encouraging and powerful and so i always encourage and struck by all his words.. all the times when i need a listening ear he's always there listening to me complaining and grumbling.. he always turn my mind from negative to positive.. when im in anger he will try to coax me so i may be still and calm.. all his loving teachings i really learn alot and thank God i didn't get any scolding by him in front of many before(but my members tried!).. the way he serve and his committed life touched and impressed me and he make my life change again.. nevertheless he love challenging me in all ways to build the youth today and win the world tomorrow.. he's like my fuel that push me forward further and somehow he look likes my shepherd.. i never forget every single word he spoke to me.. he can be crazy fun but can be strict at time.. thank God that HE has send this person into my life and make me value God more.. he makes me treasure the every moment i spend in youth and build the youth for HIM.. even my youth is actually not under his care but i can see the efforts he put in everyone of us.. we burden him seriously but he did not give up on us.. he really doing his very best to build us guys up.. and i hope we wont disappoint him and i able to accomplish the task that he has given to me as us before i leave.. i know when the time im leaving here back to my own place the one that i will miss the most is him.. however, he's gonna be one of my role model.. he's never gone in my mind and heart! ;)

as a commitment and promises that day.. we will do it as we committed.. we will run the whole race till the very end point.. as what as i told, i will try all my best and use all my best to do it all my best and will show the results. wait for my good news:)

don't hafta look at the right or left.. don't hafta use ur brain to think or wonder..

that's u, JIE HUI..

i really really really appreciate u and million thanks from the very deep bottom of my heart..
i dunno how can i appreciate u out of keeping u in my every prayer rather using words saying thanks and so.. as i said, will do my best before i leave k?

see u the end last time next year Christmas(so u should have a farewell for me by that time huh..).. or if there's happen to see u someday when u coming over for mission or im going there for trip or camp. keep in touch.
may God bless u abundantly. HE sees ur heart for HIM. HE's waiting to reward u!

Sick Cat and The Christmas Shopping

2007-12-17T13:45:00.000+08:00

aiks.. i'd been so sick after convention. so dead now..
thanks for those who being so concerned bout me. i'm getting a lil better each day. and thanks for those who keeping me in their prayer. u guys are much appreciated ;)

hmm.. i went Christmas shopping with my parents yesterday.. and im attracted by those nice design shirts and pants at Body Glove. they are having sale for 50% discount. me and mom went in and crazy bought lotsa nice shirts and a nice pants. total up RM 300+. there's like 8 nice shirts and a pants. yeah..
our of that.. i bought new wallet.. new shoes.. almost everything new!! wahahaaha..
i made a new bracelet at some beads shop when i went Christmas shopping with syeez and shann. it cost me RM 30+ for the bracelet. still consider cheap ;p
all over i spent RM700++. and i haven't finish buying my stuffs yet. oh no!! i haven't buy Christmas present!!
sooner wanna get a new phone;)

that's all about what im doing and what im thinking at the moment...
oh, can't wait till Christmas coming!! we having a combine Christmas service with Hope KLCC and Hope Serdang at Menara Yayasan Tun Razak.

words can only go so far.. that's my updates ;)

rewind

2007-12-11T01:42:00.000+08:00

raez and lai peng in the bus on the way to LCCT from KL Sentral. stuck in the jam and it was a rainy day. both of us were just back from working. so u can see we were wearing kinda formal as usual.liang and raez in LCCT airport. flight keep delaying and we were bored and tired. sleepy!!
hahha. we were in the plane. before flight canceled. that's why u can still see the exciting faces.
hmm.. this is what happened when the flight canceled. at the same time celebrating albert's birthday. i think albert got a special birthday celebration in the airport celebrating with so many.
one of the passenger flight canceled going to Gold Caost. and yea, joyce and raez. in the bus while we were sent on some 'hotel' in Nilai. long journey man....

My First Time

2007-12-11T00:52:00.000+08:00

urgh! what a bad experience man...
it was my first time taking AirAsia. my first time taking night flight.
me and my youth.. and some others Hope Pj members were taking a night flight to Kuching for MNC on the 5th Dec. we were actually the last flight. flight has been delayed for 3times or more times cause dunno what technical problem. the latest time 11 20pm. everyone getting so tired and sleepy for the delaying. end up the gate open and everyone rush into the plane. wow. we found nice sit.. put on our belts.. took some photos.. and ready to sleep.. door closed.. plane started to move.. suddenly.. the pilot announce that so sorry our flight canceled cause the Kuching Airport closing and they don't accept any planes coming in.
WHAT?? FLIGHT CANCEL?? KIDDING??
gosh!! my first time facing flight cancel man..
everyone get down from the plane and back to the airport. and what's next? everyone start complaining and arguing there.. and the Hope members standing aside keep praying and to contacts our brothers and sisters who waiting for us in Kuching there.
everyone of us requested for an extra flight later on at 5am sumthing. and like 2am, they ended up agreed with us to have an extra flight departing at 6 30am. so then we were sent to some motel more like a hotel in Nilai. it took 25mins traveling from airport to the 'hotel'.
after we check in, is like 3sumthing am. the room haven't been clean up.. bathroom pretty wet.. wet and dirty towels on the bed.. rubbish everywhere.. gosh! me, nicole, joyce squeeze in 1 single bed. we got disturbed for 2/3 times because people trying to open our door for the mess of the receptions gave wrong room number. we ended had a not more than 1hour rest and gotta wake to catch our respective buses to airport check in(again).
we are not able to change or take a bath. our luggages were all in airport still.
supposed depart at 6 30am but they ended depart at 7 15am. when everyone get into the plane, u can see everyone sleeping. pity the children really.
because of this sleepless and tired night, it made me more like a zombie during the MNC. i never miss out a chance to sleep to recharge back myself.
that's the reason why my body aching and sore throat now.
AirAsia terrible and horrible! i was thought MAS worst. but at least not that terrible and horrible. i never faced flight delay or flight cancel(so far for my experience). stop telling me because it is a budget plane. that's not the reason. but it is their responsibility to depart on time. low cost or high cost needa be systematic toO!

p/s : my dearly bro which studying pilot now in aussie(gotta finish soon), u better choose the right airline to working in man.. if not u gonna be curse by those bad-mannered and complain by those good-mannered..

black day

2007-12-03T13:12:00.000+08:00

argh!!!!!
how can it be? how can it be? how can it be? how can it be?
i lost my pricey belove watch!!!!
i dunno when i lost it.. i dunno how i lost it.. i dunno where i lost it..
urgh!!!!!
what in my mind is just all about my lovely watch now.. lost interest with anything.. i just wanna find my watch back!
oh God, can u please tell me where izit?
im getting crazier now.
never ever can get it back the same design.. same color.. same brand.. because my aunt bought it for me from others country.
oh my gosh! she might be sad to know bout it.
sobbie.. sobbie..

Singapore Trip Journal ~ day 2 ~

2007-11-27T22:53:00.000+08:00

~ Day 2 ~
we joined NS group for WFL. they were on the topic of dynamic cg. wow. though i heard that quite many times in our youth, maybe a lil bored with it, but this time it is just so different. interesting! maybe the person who share on this topic different. hahha. cannot be..
i actually got lotsa new ideas on leading a creative cg in this WFL class.
there are 3 different type of cg.
- Matthew CG
- Evangelism CG
- Regular CG/Normal CG
we do having these 3 types of cg. we still do left out the important role of these 3 different cg.
for mcg, we are not just play games or having outings. everyone think is fun so is okie, enough. it is actually for us to gather everyone, to know one another's friends and to show God's love. it is not just exciting and fun. show God's love to them so that they able to feel the love of God as well.
bout ecg, we actually do need to bring our pre-believing friends. through ecg, so that they able to know God more. but normally i don't see much pre-believing friends with us during ecg but mcg.
objectives : discipleship , outreach , care , key role.
sumtimes we think that worship leading is sumthing like we go to bath we needa use shampoo so cg must have p&w. so wrong! we sing praise and worship is not just we needa sing songs to praise and worship God.. because nice songs.. as a worship leader should choose a proper songs according to the cg theme if any. is not that u like that songs and so you sing. worship leader is to lead people to experience God. we needa help them to experience God but not experience God through the worship leader. oh yea, worship leader needa know the limitation of guitarist. before everything start, should have enough spiritual preparation. make sure everything well-prepared before the cg start example lyrics.
sumtimes we wonder why do have a discussion group. it is for us to exchange ideas and feelings after a short sharing/teaching. sumtimes the ideas may help the group to grow/improve.
there are 3 types of group. discovery group is for those non-believer to discover on God more. foundation group must be relevant and make it simple for people to understand. out of that, make sure young believer understand. formation group can be open and personal. can share everything like transparent but not naked. should know what can share and what cannot share. don't preach but help people to understand it. that would be better.
to see the growth, we needa pray more for our ministry. prepare objectives and goals so there's a direction. trust God and have faith always.
i like the way they did. after all, they do have a demo on how to lead a discussion group. everyone in the group playing a different role. from there, everyone able to learn how to deal with different type of people due to which situations. that makes everyone easier to understand. great!!

here comes the climax. youth service!! sermon preached by Pst. Jasmine on the topic of How to You Enjoy Life (Phil 4 : 10 - 13).
really struck me on the 1st point pastor shared. learn how to avoid comparison. by that time, im thinking what makes me happy? okie, there's 3 misconceptions about happiness. some people must have what people have to be happy ; some people must be liked by everyone in order to be happy ; some people need to have more will make self more happy.
because of peer pressure, we like comparing. we needa have what people have or sumthing that better than others to make ourselves happy. another reason is that we have what others have so we can be friend with them.. to join others gang.. to be like by others. even Jesus do not like by everyone, so how can we?! to avoid all these, we needa learn to draw on God's power. trust God for He will deliver us and help us. continue to read bible and claims the promises. for what we have in this world, is all from God. He is the owner of all and we should know how to be satisfied. keep praying ;)

Singapore Trip Journal ~ day 1 ~

2007-11-27T18:18:00.000+08:00

~ Day 1 ~
as i mentioned earlier, is a challenge for me to do street evax in others country. since im not kinda outspoken type of person and if u do not talk to me am not going to talk to u. if i know u that's different of course. as i said, i was grouped with WanTing during street evax in Causeway Point. i saw them sharing like eating rice so easy. i do observed the way she shared to the peoples. share a short story, draw the diagram, asking questions, share testimony. that's it!
- at the same time sharing to them, we should quickly bring out the important point. not everyone has the patient listening on what u share.
- do not share in a group of 3 or more if u're not grouping with so many.
- always observe their reaction. ask questions that is according to their reaction.
- share is as fast as possible. understandable and clear.
- share testimony so that able to touch their heart and to make them believe. true testimony!
when my turn to share, i have no idea where's the guts and courage comes from. i know what to share but still shaking. maybe lil nervous for the first time. but is a good result. both of them converted by WanTing led them to sinner prayer. hmm, i should be more confident next time on my sharing so result would turns out better.
just got to know that they actually doing street evax a5t least 3times a week during holiday. wow. so enouraging! for me, i guess i will turn out crazy then. guess i needa change in this area eh..

we attended NorthEast girls unit prayer meeting at Serangoon. when we reach, they are still practicing and much thing haven't be done yet.
during their practicing time, it reminds me that next time maybe we can have our practice as the same way. just we start our cg punctual and they are lil later. no offense.
since our youth do not have our own prayer meeting lidat so im looking forward what's going on next with the prayer meeting. but it can helps us to apply it for our prayer before cg start.
i learned how to lead a prayer meeting. one of this prayer there struck me the most while we were singing the song Pure Heart. there's a dirt in our heart that couldn't be remove and blocking us to go forward. but we do always forget to ask God to take this dirt away because we are not depending on our God. that is true. realy realy true. time to check our heart now!

these are the 2 things we did on the first day trip. minus the part hanging around in Bugis Village. hahha.

time for devotion!! albert was sharing on the Pro 28 : 23 - 24.
wow. it reflected me lotsa of things! lying is a sin. but people do still lie even they know it is a sin. this will happen in our daily live no matter who u are. why? we lie to cover/protect self. to cover the imperfects so that others can only see our perfects. beware of your tongue. truth is better than lie. do not say anything if you do not know the truth. cause it could cause death or some serious. at this point, i realized that some people around us are doing it. just they wanna to let people think they're way smarter pretending they know everythings. or is for own goods. we actually sumtimes do lie just to protect ourselves. to know our mistakes in our daily lives, we should pray more and read bible everyday. of course devotion! slowly, we can see the changes in us.

random feeling post

2007-11-27T17:50:00.000+08:00

make some conclusions of the whole trip.
erm, maybe not conclusion but how do i feel bout this trip? okie..
before i go to S'pore. a week before. i did planned everything nicely. what i wanna learn from them etc. i do have my objectives on going this trip.
i do went mission in Mentakab for Christmas 2years back. it's way way different compare to this in Singapore. it reflected me the goodness of God for that mission trip in Mentakab. God led us through the whole mission and we can see the power of prayer and how God lead us through.
back to the point, i'd learned what i wanna learn from them. purpose of this trip fulfilled. and i learned sumthing much more better which is out of my expectation.
sumthing that impressed me the most there are the peoples there. i can see their heart for God! their spiritual life are really strong. it reminded me, is time for me to change. am so touched by the brothers and sisters there. especially the leaders. never see them complaining even the situation going so wrong. wow. how great! fantastic! incredible!
God is good all the time! He got the bestest plan for us and it is always wonderful! trust in Him no matter what!

p/s : check on the next blog. see what i'e learned on different days.

Singapore Trip - 4th Day

2007-11-27T04:19:00.000+08:00

this is the last day in S'pore and we are leaving in the morning 11. so we woke very early to pack our things. it was LP's birthday. we surprised her a cupcake(represent birthday cake) with big candles and chocs around. hahha.
Happy Blessed Birthday LP! in the room..
before leaving, gotta say goodbye to Harry and Jun Liang since both of them not going with us. Peter lead us to Novena Square for our bus leaving there. i messaged Derrick asking whether he's coming over. he do not reply and i expected he's not coming since he told me he can only be release at 9am. kinda disappointed. while on the way to Clementi MRT station to meet Nicole, we saw Derrick with his NS uniform. lolx. he surprised me. hahha. supposed wanna have breakie with Nicole and her sis. but she ended up saying wanna join the mandarin service and plan failed. Peter lead them to church and Derrick will be leading us to Novena. we had a rushed breakie+lunch at the food court at the same time waiting for Peter. we able to get into bus on time but we reached the last though. but fine! really appreciate Peter for the arranged. both of Peter and Derrick are having cg around 12 30pm and 1pm. but they still company us till the bus left. i think Peter getting so busy calling peoples to meet us and things. arranged our trips. wow. i don't think i able to do that toO. Harry! he offered us staying in his house. we sleeping in air-cond room. missionaries shouldn't be so comfortable huh. thanks so much for the warmth hospitalities! and about Derrick, he's pretty tired after duties and sleepless. summore he gotta wear his army uniform under hot sun and sweats. he needa rush back home to change and straight attend cg.
till this point, i got a clearly purpose of serving. everything they did impressed me alot and i got encouraged by them. no words that can express how do i feel at the moment. hope that i can visit them again sooner. seriously. miss u guys! thanks for serving and God bless:)
Raez and Derrick in MRT. funny Albert doing funny things behind. last pic with Derrick. before leaving. our bus just beside;)

Singapore Trip - 3rd Day

2007-11-27T03:11:00.000+08:00

as i said i had a promise with Derrick. his promise to me is that wake me up before he leaving to his camp for army duty. supposed at 6 30am but ended up he woke me at 7am sumthing. nevermind, is okie. the point is he do woke me. the reason is to show me how he looks like in his army uniform. was thought he would miss call me or sumthing to wake me, who knows he came into my room woke me up. at first i thought YC calling me but when i turned back, WOW, Derrick! he way way look smarter and more serious with his army uniform. hahha. after he leave, i continue to sleep. anyway, i woke late by then. i rushed myself in almost everything who knows sumone later than me. =.=" here's the climax of the whole mission trip. why? we are going to Nexus for youth service. they have 3 different sections for different groups of peoples. so we were in the 2nd service with the NS peoples. before that, we joined NS peoples for their WFL. is about dynamic cg. i got lots of ideas from there. on how to lead a cg.. duty roles etc.
oh yea, i met Jerel, Nick and Jol. wow. almost couldn't recognized them. toO sad never able to met YiQin. and yea, Jol getting prettier. more like a lady compare to the student look. hahha. good news! after WFL, we went downstairs for lunch. and we were led by Daniel and Shaun to the shopping complex opposite to get some appreciation gifts there at Mark&Spencers. since time rushing, we never get to have a walk there and back to Nexus for service. wow. Hope S'pore church is COOL. their Hope store is more like a Christianity shop. this place, before became our church, it was a cinema. so u can be told the church is like a cinema. got the scenario? the different is that there's an extra a big stage in the front. lolx.
this is how the church looks like. maybe not so clear bout it. just to show it stage.
how glad our church in S'pore is at Orchard Road. wow. after service, we joined Central girls for meeting. we played games and do sharing. that's fun! and follow by then we had a sermon discussion group with Peter's cg. and there, i saw Jie Hui(SDL of the NS group). he absent for service cause having exam. God bless u, JH! is a meaningful discussion. and GREAT sermon preach by Pst.Jasmine. now comes the fun time! we went to Makan Sutra for dinner together a few NS guys and Pst.Shirley. woots! thanks them even more! we don't even pay a cent for foods. all nice foods and toO much of it. so blessed~

dinner at Makan Sutra. YingLin missed out in this pic. he went earlier. of course JH! he's holding the cam. lolx.
we went visit around that places. of course can't miss out visiting Melion! we led by 'da jie' JH. lolx. this is how his NS guy call him. took photos like a crazy. hahha.
Aeron(which i do hope i spell correctly) , Raez , Rayson , Guo Feng , Sida
Sida , Raez , Rayson(what he did make him looks cute and funny)
NS group 'da jie' JIeHui and Pj youth 'da jie' Raez. lolx..
JieHui , Raez , Yoke Ching
Guo Feng , Raez , Aeron
around 11pm sumthing, everyone went home selves.that's the last night i met JH cause going back to KL next morning. anyway, i know i do still have chance to meet him again and them. lolx. no worries:) we went home and got call to go supper. this is what Peter used to. supposed wanna celebrate birthday for LP that night. but both plans failed in the end. she was pretty tired and don't feel like going anywhere. we went supper and lil special is that we had supper with Nicole(our sister in Hope Pj; college group leader) and her sis. that makes the night even younger!! hmm, Peter drives kinda normal that day. no more roller coaster. hahha.

Singapore Trip - 2nd Day

2007-11-26T23:39:00.000+08:00

have no idea why me and YC woke so early that day. supposed to wake at 9am but we ended up woke at 8am. maybe we getting exciting bout the events? hahha. nevermind. we got ourselves well prepared so that we can leave earlier and so we did. hahha. we took an hour journey from Clementi to Woodlands, Causeway Point(shopping center). we are meeting the North girls cg there for street evax. at first we had our breakie+lunch at the food court. cut the story short, not gonna mention everything but the point. i was grouped with WanTing.

Raez and WanTing

at first she shared and im the back-up. followed by me i shared also the last. is a challenge for me to street evax in sumwhere not in my country. the point is that different culture different life styles. i have no way idea to introduce myself but thank God WanTing helping me by side. i shared the important part and she will be sharing those church activities and self-intro part. we had 2 converts the end!! praise God!!

back: Albert ; front: Yoke Ching , Raez , WanTing , XinRu
lunch at food court after street evax.
we left there around 3 30pm and rush to Serangoon to attend NorthEast unit prayer meeting. anyway, prayer meeting started late. and we ended late i guess. we had our dinner with some leaders around that area. nice chatting with them and thanks alot for those nice foods. we didn't even pay a cent for it except for our own drinks. almost everything finish, 'tour guide' changed. Peter needa go back home for sumthing and replaced by Derrick(he's a cute guy). he brought us to meet up together Han Yang(the one do attended LifeGame at the same time for mission) and Bruce, we went Bugis Village for a walk then. like our Chinatown here. but there is way way much better than here im sure. everyone had an ice-cream before leaving. nice!! we gotta be back earlier for devotion and waiting for LP to arrive. while waiting for LP, we had finished our devotion. by the way, we shared junk foods together with Harry and Bruce and chit-chatted. that's our supper i guess. hehhe. Derrick and Han Yang fetching LP around 12am and had supper with LP by then since LP haven't had her dinner. they back around 2am. =.=" so we slept late again around 3am. i guess we were not tired. maybe we were? because walking for a long journey. maybe not so long. hahha. before going to bed, got a promise with Derrick. what's the promise? check it out on the 3rd day then;)

this is sumwhere we saw on the way going back to Clementi from Bugis Village.
Yoke Ching , Raez , Albert. 3 of us from Pj youth. the missionaries ;)
Derrick , Yoke Ching , Raez , Han Yang , Bruce

Singapore Trip - 1st day

2007-11-26T22:32:00.000+08:00

wow. been keeping so out of touch with my blog. been to S'pore for youth mission trip?!?? lolx.
so let's see what i did there ya.. hahha..
let's talk bout the first day.
i woke up quite late that day since our bus leaving in the evening 4 30pm.
after checking everything that i needa bring, my mom fetched me to her office for lunch then she'll fetch me to KTM station to meet up YC there.
we met there around 2pm. bought tickets.. get ourselves into KTM to KL Central.. went McD for lunch at the same time waiting for Albert.
around 3pm sumwhere around there, we took LRT to Bangsa. we are taking FirstCoach to S'pore and leaving at Bangsa.
we get our tickets and waited for like 30mins we get into our bus. oh yeah, the bus left on time! hahha. at the same time, we received lots messages from our(me and yc) friends saying GOOD LUCK and GOD BLESS. hahha. thanks people!
this kinda exciting for both of us cause first time going to S'pore. we talk non-stop seriously. after 2hours lidat, we were stop by sumwhere to have dinner and a break for 20mins. while 3 of us were looking around, guess what's going on?? hahha. we saw Nicole and Kim. that was surprised! 'sumone' doing funny things recording there that they saw us sumwhere. hahha.
Raez and Yoke Ching in the bus. exciting!!
random post. nice pic. hehhe. thanks YC!

story to be continue in the bus. finally we reached immigration. checked passport.. gone through custom. wow! we are in S'pore after 5hours journey. that not so a long journey for me. hehhe. wow. me and YC actually chatted 5hours non-stop then. hehhe.
our bus stopping at Novena around 9pm there. after we took our luggage i was thought that maybe Albert will contact Peter or someone else bout our arriving by that time. who knows suddenly there's this someone called me from behind and i was like "WOW! PETER!!" ahahha. that's funny of me ;) Peter coming together with Harry(the one whom we gonna stay in his house during this trip) and Jun Liang whom we met in LifeGame camp that he went over for mission).
Yoke Ching, Raez, Albert, Peter, Jun Liang. Harry holding cam. erm, photo is blur i know ;p
we bought this 'do it all on one card' - ez link.
here's the front of the card..
and here's the back of the card..
it is the use of taking public transport. touch and go. lolx. since we haven't take our dinner, so we prefer go back to Harry's house and download our things before dinner. so we took MRT to Orchard and switch to bus going back to Harry's house in Clementi. we went dinner sumwhere nearby by Peter's driving. not going to mention the way he drives. ahem*
around 12am sumthing we reached back and take our bath. before we sleep we have a short briefing bout our trip by Peter. we ended up sleeping at 3am....

Michelle's Birthday

2007-11-20T00:08:00.001+08:00

we went to 1U after cg to celebrate michelle's birthday as i mentioned earlier in my previous blog. here's the picxie :)

this is the cake we bought for michelle. her surprised!
it's a blackforest flavor. since she loves strawberries that much. so here's 5!

hahha. we were teased her by using mouth to take the candle out. her challenge ;p

time to cut her cake! yea.. we were waiting to have a piece of it! yummy..

michelle and raez. Happy Sweet Sixteen, Michelle!!

sam , michelle , raez.

anny , michelle , raez.

sam and raez. 2 blackie ladies. hahha. she looks younger but actually she's the eldest among us :)

Cycling Care-Group(CG) photos

2007-11-19T22:51:00.000+08:00

as my promises i'll upload those picxie i took in Bukit Cahaya. finally i tranffered all the picxie from my phone to my computer and laptop. hehhe.
here goes the picxie...

michelle and raez. this is what we did in the car. bored..
sunlights look good eh..

and here goes the 2 pigs who sleep in the car.
wonder why they can smile when sleeping. lolx.

sweating after walking all the way in.
took it after i fainted. hahha.
but my both cheeks still look pink :)

raez and shannen.
just can't stop loving the nice scene..

shannen. windy. raez.
that's the boyish and pretty who don't really know how to ride. and the another just give up riding after fainted.
this is a very nice place. sumthing a river or lake behind. couldn't know what's that really. it's toO big and never see the ends.
with the nice tall greenie trees surrounding. ace!

shannen. raez. pei kuan.
we were in the snow house which is located in sumthing like a factory.
this factory contains 4 seasons according to the months and following some countries' season. is exactly the same. u can have that kinda feeling u are at sumwhere countries.
have no snowing because it is not the month of snowing. sobbie..

windy. raez. pei kuan.
it is real cold in there. they are not providing any jackets.

shannen. windy. raez.
bestest forever!!
though we were kinda freezing in there. but still we are trying to do sumthing fun and cute.
hahha..
as a memorable!!

shannen. raez.
toO bad we can only see half of the snow house.
we actually wanna walk in there but pretty cold. may not really able to stand with the cold.
anyway, still a nice pic.

hehhe.
the snow house it's just behind us.
can see the cold smile?
cold!! but cool!!

hmm.. this pic doesn't really look good.
cause im freezing. never able to smile better.

this is the pic i love the most :) i have a good photographer. hahha.
focus on the scene. it is sumthing a forest without leaves but covered with the snow flakes.

scene #1

scene #2

scene #3

scene #4

yay!! here's the group photo!!

we have 6visitors...
and 1 regular visitor..
toO bad some of our member not able to join us.
we enjoy very much!!
so..
hope there's some chance to have our youth camp here again since we had it here last year.
youth rockx!!

Cycling Care-Group(CG)

2007-11-18T23:30:00.000+08:00

aiks, just feel free to update my blog. so let's see what happened these few days.
hmm........
supposed we have bowling cg yesterday(saturday) but the acls changed it to cycling cg and we were be informed on thursday night which i only saw the message on friday morning. i call up my friends and inform them bout the changes. sadly, i got scolded by some of them and got rejected. some of us do confused our visitors. i wondered since they knew it earlier and why don't they inform ealier? why last minute? kinda frustrated at time but erm.. i believe there's a better plan from God. so then i forget bout it; keep inviting some others friends. praise the living God, 3 of my friends going.
we ended up have our cycling cg at Bukit Cahaya , Shah Alam which is the place where we had our youth camp there last year and that i hope i able to go there again. we have 6 visitors, 1 regular visitors joining us that day.
some of us reached there quite early around 3pm(later than the time we supposed planed). some reached kinda late for they lost their way.
it is a very nice... forest? parks? but is sumthing a combination of forest and parks for me. nevertheless, fresh airs!! we chosen the bicycles that we wanna and rented it for an hour. when everyone's getting so excited, sumthing bad happened on me when on the way in. im not pk. but have no idea why i fainted(which i guess im okie now). i decided to walk with 2 pretty and boyish ladies for they dunno how to ride companied by a sister. she guided us. we enjoyed they journey walking in with jokes. besides, we were stopped by some stall and bought some drinks and junk food shared it.
we visited a place(like a factory) which have 4 seasons according to the months following some countries. so it is exactly like you were in some countries when you are in there. trust me!! we just needa pay for rm1. rm1! can u believe it? gosh! the worker there told us that this is the month where just have lil snow flakes and not snowing yet. the best month to visit is december for it is snowing. SNOWING!! there's 4 nor 3 decorations maybe it's representing different places or countries. goodness. i pick up my mind to come here again with my friends nor family. not the snow, but the happy moment we have in there.
we were freezing, but never forget to take some nice photos toO. cool. next time we should bring some jackets since they are not providing any. hahha. on the way visiting the.. snow house? whatsoever. we passed by a river? lake? anyway, it is really nice with the nice tall tress surrounding. gosh, am be infatuated with the nature and environment there. wonderful nature that God created for us!
time rushing so we were not able to visit the drawbridge. it is hanging half way, narrow and long summore high. i never imagine myself walking on the bridge with the bridge swinging half way. that's scary!
we do took some group photo before we left. around 5 30pm(sumwhere there) we followed our beloved drivers back home. thanks Kar Lock for his willingness to help us out with the transportation even he's not youth. and Pei Kuan, she stay quite far away and she waisted 2hours plus to fetch some of us home. appreciate them alot really. thanks for giving to the Lord, may God bless u both as u served!
oh yea, at the same time it was my friend - Michelle's birthday. she do joined our cg. 4 of us went to 1U celebrate for her(which she dunno what's going next). she blindly followed us everywhere. we go to this hongkong style restaurant to have dinner since it was dinner time. after we ordered what we wanna, me and Lee Kuan went away and we lied we wanna buy sumthing. actually we were looking for a nice cake with her flavor for he birthday. hmm, can hardly find cake shop there. so we were running up and down like a crazy.
after meals, we chit-chatting there.. talking bout the cg just now. suddenly, we surprised her by singing birthday songs for her and the waitress helped us to brought the cake out at the same time. her tears almost dropped seriously. hahha. she was touched by our surprises for her. she has the most memorable birthday celebration so far as she said. may God bless her in her studies and her health and God will continue to guide this chiq's spiritual life so that she will glorify Him. Blessed Sweet Sixteen!
we reached home around 9 30pm. after i got everything done, i went to bed for im having some headache(maybe some affections after fainted), prepare for service tomorrow(today)!
will upload some photos sooner ;)

shepherding

2007-11-14T23:12:00.000+08:00

hahha. holiday!! exciting mood..
i have a wonderful combined shepherding with Shannen at PizzaHut together our shepherd Ngee Sun. goodness. been really long never have pizza. almost forgot how pizza taste like. hahha. sounds funny.
have no idea why i love combine shepherding. maybe the atmosphere not gonna ended up so serious? at least there's more jokes? hahha. maybe.. but still i hope i can have more chances on combine shepherding if is possible.
anyway, why must we feel pressure talking to our shepherd? ani't we are even closer than others? hahha. maybe the teacher throw a gloom over us. so we treated shepherd as teacher. but i guess this happen only among the high school students. not sure it is because of shy or pressure.
hmm, i hope im not gonna be the same again. i wanna change!! change!!
okie, challenge myself now.. ciaoz..

Revision Test

2007-11-13T00:57:00.000+08:00

im doing a revision test prepared by my shepherd. hmm, those questions i think is quite easy, not toO hard to answer. through this test, it helps me to review back lots of things. it reflects me what God has blessed me so far.. and how's my attitude of serving. this is a very good test and i do wanna encourage all shepherds to give their sheeps such test so that it could help them in growing and knowing God more.
the last question require to write a testimony in 100 words. i keep thinking "what should i write in 100 words?". when i start to think.. my tears start to drop.. it reminded me how blessed i am and how God lead me through out all circumstances i'd been through.
i guess i really hafta pray harder to God asking what He wanna me to write to testify Him in 100 words. i hope i can have a better answer tomorrow.
so yea, thanks shepherd!! u're the best and i love u really!!

random post of my new hair style

2007-11-12T22:48:00.000+08:00

oh yay!! ended up i got some photo of mine with new hair style. toO bad can't see those highlights because it is behind. hope i can take some photos of it. gorgeous love my highlights now. hahha.

here goes the picxie..

post 1#

post 2#

never speak when you're in anger..

2007-11-11T22:24:00.000+08:00

never believe whatever the person say when that person is in anger or in dilemma. especially those who are schizophrenic. yeah.
i know im a lil, not critical, not at all times. and i have no idea what i'd said to my lovely girl that day. but i guess i hurts her summore with the article i blogged here. but forget bout it. im actually dunno what im doing and saying(im lost in control) till my cousins(which 2 of 'em are doctor) realized im going sumthing wrong and try to stop me from getting so lost in control.
they forced me with some medications and jab me with some vaccine so that i able to cool down. im stupefy by some narcotics and so im fall asleep till the next day i woke up i still dunno what's going on with me, couldn't regain consciousness. maybe the narcotics and medications still not gone. i apologized when i sobered up. i hope she understand and she's alright. i know it after my cousin told me the whole stories. hmm, i guess maybe im toO stressed out at the same time in dilemma and i couldn't stand with the circumstances so cause me psychopathic.
i hope this not gonna happened anymore. it's really scary to me. it's scary!!

p/s : sorry, girl.. if you're reading this, you know im talking bout you!

TRICKING!!!!!!! part 2

2007-11-11T20:17:00.000+08:00

oppss.. i remembered he do mentioned TRICKING in his blog with videos and he's into it. hahha. that's all my fault.
he's excited talking bout it. he's saying mostly he cant land the TRICK nicely. just got to know he actually start to TRICK since this year.
anyway, hope he can do better in his spm not TRICK(for the moment right now) and don't be sotong anymore through out the whole weeks till the spm thingy ends.
TRICKING is a cool sport really. hope that i can have the opportunity seeing sumone TRICKING and landed nicely. that's even cool. hahha.
keep it up for TRICKING. hahha. believe that he can do it one day which i dunno when. all the best in exam and i think he can score with flying colors the smartie.
never forget bout him in my prayer always;)

TRICKING!!!!!!!

2007-11-11T17:47:00.000+08:00

TRICKING!! TRICKING!! TRICKING!! hate this word dy..
never thought of TRICKING could be a sport since im not that sporty and all in my mind is just SWIMMING.
im sure it doesn't seems to be any famous sport in kl.. not much people know.. after asking quite a few person what does mean.
TRICKING is sumthing a martial art & gymnastic. erm.. complicated for me to tell what's that. sumthing a combinations of some sports. err.. sumthing lidat. okie, fine!
woi dude! don't blame larh.. what you mean you never assume i know everything huh? hello! not my fault okie.. of course we thinking sumthing much more familiar using the word TRICKING. sorry is the word i can only say.
mad at times but i learned there is this sumthing call TRICKING. fine. forgiven. since u're stressed out+freaked out.
forget bout you!! yeah!!
ciaoz..

new hair style!!

2007-11-09T23:04:00.000+08:00

what a happy day!!
hahha..
early in the morning i woke up and got prepared myself.. wear so neatly and nicely.. wait for my parents.. guess what? hahha. im following them to their office(not working) and go this grand saloon nearby their office. i followed them for breakfast and cool down for a while around 10am, i go to the saloon and perm my hair+highlight. hahha.
what a good service. i perm my hair at the same time doing manicure!! hahha. like im some rich woman going to some beauty shop to have some service. hahha. feeling so great!
okie, this not the first time i go to saloon and set hair. but most the time i go for rebonding and this the first time i perm. excited!! have no idea why.
comes to this highlight part, supposed i wanna highlight some purple red(that's really cool) but there's lots of steps to do if i wanna highlight that color summore kinda troublesome when the color started to comes out. so fine. i choosen some golden brown which is quite nice and cool. result came out even better what i expected u know. hahha.
and yea, i do some treatments so my hair's protected!!
after everything got done, i went shopping with mom for while since there's still time. hahha. feeling cool with my new hairstyle walking on the streets. at least sumthing different. a sporty look. hahha.
love my golden hair!! getting insane now :)

dude!!!!

2007-11-07T23:13:00.000+08:00

sumone making me getting pretty mad. gosh, feel like killing him now! KILLING!!
if you're this person and you reading this, you should know i'm talking bout you dude!
you're kinda getting mysterious to me. or actually this is one of your characteristic? or this is what a dude should act like? hmmm, i wonder... oh yea, you love MIA eh.. now i believe. MIA suddenly? yeah, that's you! ain't?
fine, forget bout you. bad guy you are. but sumtimes can be good at times? hmmm, weird larh u..
okie, really gotta forget bout u now!
ciaoz..

just some random post..

2007-11-06T23:50:00.000+08:00

bored!!! im just bored without any reason why am so.
okie fine. the 7cm cut getting recover. not sure is the ice works or the antibiotic works. watcha think?? but still have lots of foods cannot eat. oh sad...
talk about tomorrow. holiday!! but ain't happy. going to immigration tomorrow to have my international passport. other than that, needa settle up some of my migration thingy.
funny!! and i really mean it!! when the time u can't leave u feel like leaving to wherever u think that' good. but when the time u can leave u don't feel like leaving anymore. yeah am i. still remember when the time i came here i don't feel any unable to part. it's innocence!
that's toO much for me to sacrifice if i wanna migrate;back to the place i belongs to. hey, im a human, fill with feelings. my friends.. my parents.. my church.. my youth.. my dearest all.. my love one?? my home here.. all my good old times happened here! kinda hard for me to just leave lidat. tears drop..
anyhow, i need some times to really think bout it. i might regret by then.
so that's the updates so far..

funny?? unfortunate??

2007-11-05T21:00:00.000+08:00

what a funny day!! there's sumthing happened such like a big joke. im not gonna detail what's happening, cause it's really doesn't make sense.
sumone accidentally has a long cut on my leg which is 7cm long with blades but not that deep though. hers deeper than mine. nah is okie for me seriously. by the way, i hope she's alright and hope that she's awaken from all incidents.
at first, i do not feel anything with the cut, just felt lil cold(it's bleeding!). my friends saw and they were panic! and keeping shouting " rae... rae... rae.. chel.. uuuurrrrr lllleeeeeggg.... uuuurrrrr llleeeggggggg! " and i was like " huh? my leg? what? " things continue and after i saw my leg' bleeding, im like " okie, that's coOl. my leg's bleeding.. so? and her hand's bleeding.. so? go to hospital.. lolx. so? " hahha.
slowly when the use of narcotics gone, i started to feel the pains. i can't see what's going on with the cut because it is being wrapped with some gauze. it reminded a year back(sumwhere there) it happened the almost same case. i got a cut on my hand with 10cm long and is deeper compare to this. i forgot how could i suffered at that moment and know i feel it again. aiks...
i gonna scream out loud with the 7cm pain. hahha. since it is wrapped by doctor and i can't do anything with it. im wondering, how come i don't feel such pain with 10cm cut but 7cm?? hmm..
was chatted with JK. he knows what's going on. this funny dude ask me to use ice to reduce the pain and he never know izit works. hahha. this cause me can hardly walk or sit. painful!!! but still, thanks JK. can't feel any pain while chatting with him but laughing all the way.(that's not the point) hahha. i used his way to advice sumone and followed whatever he taught. even both were ended be sent to hospital but the situation at least has been simplify and couldn't critical. (minus the impulsive part) hehhe.
but still thanks people for concerning, and those who help out the complex situation. and what i did doesn't mean im daring but impulsive.(for those who knows) lolx. that's how the 7cm cut on my leg comes from.
and so, you're right JK. i should be careful and take care myself right? hahha..

what does " HAPPY" means to me?

2007-11-05T19:38:00.000+08:00

am i really happy? if i dunno, no one else know. i almost think everyday, am i happy today?? i find out million of reason am happy but eventually that's not work! how sad to have such answer.. am satisfied with everything i had but is only temporary. it can satisfy my physical needs but never spiritual needa though. if u think that' still consider HAPPY.
i know that people out there may think im fine, im happy(that's how my 'happy-maker' comes from), im more open-minded or whatsoever excuses can be. yea, never judge a books with its cover. what you can see from me eventually is not who im supposed to be. there's sumone told me that im actually choleric. erm, im melancholy, sorry. choleric is just the way how i act like. hmm, that's my greatest job that i able to cover without anyone's realizing. hahha.
nowadayz, more and more people seeking for happiness. i tell you what, everyone's influencer and we get influence very easily. if people around u tend to be happy and you are happy but if people around you tend to be sad and you are sad toO. i did survey. lemme ask u, if people around u keep troubling you or hurting you, will u happy? nah, there's a NO right??
this is what the world nowadayz is. you can hardly find sumone which doesn't hurt or trouble you. the percentage that u can get this kinda people is 90%.
i was once happy, but i guess never for present. anyhow i can still show you my very sweet smiling face every day every moment and i can have zillion funs like crazy, but never from the inside out though.
my happiness can only glow in my memories. bygone be bygone. time for me to move on fighting for another battle, suffer for the next second.
ciaoz..

buzzie life

2007-11-03T20:40:00.000+08:00

am so sleepless recently. getting more towards panda looks. urgh.. burn the midnight oil, dealing with some cases, rushing projects etc. (couldn't finish listing out all. that' toO much)
the busy-ness of mine makes me forget about what is tire and restless and hungry. thank God! all of these gonna be end sooner. and i can have my normal life again getting out of busy?? hahha. never know. ask God maybe?
seriously, most of my friends they love to imagine how they would be in their future working life. i would never imagine. im busy enough even haven't comes to work. what else more when really comes to work? hahha.. i dunno.. never think.. never wanna know. cruel for me to think bout it. hehhe.
can hardy get a chance to really into chatting online mood. or friendster or blog. phone calls non-stop(not to chat but it's urgent+important), sms non-stop, messages non-stop. terrible!
i hope that the time can stop down, so that, i able to sit down and relax and take a deep good sleep. nah, it could happen! really! in my dream.. *bleh*
time for me to get back into busy life, and getting my head out of mind.
ciaoz..

life's complicated..

2007-10-31T16:52:00.000+08:00

recently there's multiple of things happen with sudden. that's incredible! but anyway, hope everything will turns out fine sooner.
Satan playing fool with us i guess. everything just messes up, kinda out of control. i felt grief after reading 'sumone's' blog. hmm, i couldn't comment much and i didn't know much, but i think we must know the truth before we judge whatsoever things. okie, i know family is important but couldn't be toO over-protect them even they did sumthing wrong. it is dangerous to judge others. btw, i think that shouldn't be a reason stopping 'sumone' from growing and serving. think more positively and wise. at the same time give a thought to one's feeling. no one ever wanna make others angry of one's. it's for ur own good..
the situation presents great complexity. thing turns out of expectation.
at the moment right now, im kinda down and am speechless, cause even me myself have no idea what i gonna do to simplify it. time to pass all this kinda suckish thingy back to God and He will lead. let go and let God..

bored..

2007-10-30T22:55:00.000+08:00

hmmm, dunno why recently im so absent-minded in whatever im doing. couldn't focus at one's. sumthing going just so wrong with me!! okie fine, forget bout it at the moment.
am so sick! am i really sick? or just being toO restless+stressed out=sick? hahha. i have no idea.. judge yourself.
i felt vexed and have no idea it related to what. studies? maybe my english yes. "lost my own accent. sad." family? nah no. friends? dont think there's any. youth? yea, sumone i guess. church? err, not at the moment. money? never. love? always complicated. hmm, what else? hahha. think im going lil out of mind aight.
life getting bored when comes to the end of the year and makes me getting lazier. urgh! sumthing rare, im busy at the same time. erm, which i dunno what im busy with actually. just BUSY. lolx. sounds funny..
i realized that im getting lost interest in almost everything. but always never MUSIC. time for me to move on to improve my guitar' and drums' skill. i might getting lag behind if im not gonna moving on. bleh*
oh, getting more exciting bout the following months!! gonna go manicure, gonna perm my hair, gonna do hair treatment, gonna do highlight, gonna travel, gonna go piercing, gonna go camps, gonna... wow. uncountable. my free month! hahha. people out there don't jealous please.. neway, it could be meaningless for me toO. so is equal to nothing.
let's stay tuned for more updates what i gonna do then ;p
at this point i lost my view of keep on writing this. so ciaoz. update u guys soon again.

Happy Birthday to Caryn

2007-10-16T22:18:00.000+08:00

16 Oct 2007. Happy Blessed Birthday, Caryn!! Happy Sweet Sixteen, lovely!!
we knew each when were very young. thank God for the opportunity that we able to meet again in high school. by then we became neighbor. hahha. we car pool to school and back home. nevertheless we always hang out at our condo's cafe and share everything together.
it's her birthday today! so i really wanna send my bestest wishes for her!
oh yea! i attended her birthday party yesterday! hahha. it was great! thanks Caryn:)
i wish hat could be the sweetest birthday celebration for her. happiest moment.
God Bless You, my dear..

Just for CARYN :

On your birthday, special one,
I wish that all your dreams come true.
May your day be filled with joy,
Wonderful gifts and goodies, too.

On your day I wish for you
Favorite people to embrace,
Loving smiles and caring looks
That earthly gifts cannot replace.

I wish you fine and simple pleasures.
I wish you many years of laughter.
I wish you all of life’s best treasures.
I wish you happily ever after!

Happy Blessed Birthday!

lifegame LifeGame and LifEGamE

2007-09-25T19:45:00.000+08:00

if not forgotten,it has been 3weeks ago since LifeGame. but still it seems to be like just happened yesterday. okie,i mIsS it very much;) it has become the HoT topic among us.
been really nice chatting with this FuNNy fellow JoShE. hahha. cUtE+FrIeNdLy dude with cOOl attitude. fun crapping with him every late night.(not so late larh) hehhe:) guess what?!?? i would never thought of we seems to like know each in ages. we share almost everything together. lolx. knowing that he's in a GooD BoY state now and stressed out?!?? hahha. i guess he's okie ;) anyway,will still keeping this GooD BoY in prayer and hope he'll score flying colors;) God Bless babe..
im now getting busier for im collecting all LifeGame' photos and videos;editing some videos and slide shows. enjoy watching all the video clips and looking at all funny picx. hahha. can see all busy faces running up an down. hahha. it reminded me myself in the GamE. that's SweEt:) bring back all my memories!! okie,that's my hobby~ thanks JoShE and AnDrEw:)
im glad im still keeping in touch with some of them. PrEcIoUs huh~ nice chatting with them and i MiSS them!! hope to meet them up someday!! maybe i can try volunteer myself so i can have this opportunity to cooperate with them in 'SomE'GamE. that can pull us closer:) oh,hahha.. there's a LifeGame coming soon sumwhere in December,PD. oh how i hope i can make it man.. still transportation needa settle. and can sumone else go with me? oh please.. oh i don't feel like missing it!! please.. that is really sad if i can't make it!! guess i needa pray harder aight.. so JoshE, keep me update k? thanks people for the invitation+update. that's wOnDeRfUl of ya'll:)
LifeGame never end!!!!!

** the shortest post i had **

Life Game

2007-09-06T13:59:00.000+08:00

it's been like almost a week since student camp. the very poor thing i fall sick during camp and just had a lil recovered. sobbie..
Life Game was really GREAT. it is the bestest camp i'd never ever attended. minus the part where we're staying in a dusty and noisy room;cockroaches in the toilets;a dead bird in sumone's room. gosh! hahha. we had a damn wonderful time hang out for supper at night till like midnight 2sumthing wake up at 7 the next morning. we gone insane really;p okie,back to the point. seems like i have my 2nd chance to live my life. is really true! i'd seen through the real meaning of life.. i'd been through interviewing for jobs.. i'd experienced how does a busy working life likes.. i'd been through the poor and rich life.. and i found the purpose of my life! what i can say : Life ain't Easy!
my life in this game definitely different compare to the real life im living now. abit suffer for the first few days or rounds. i feel like crying calling mummy i wanna go home!! nah i didn't. just a description larh k. but i do keep complaining to my girls larh though. hehhe:) see,im honest aight. hahha. and now i experienced the true meaning of NO PaiN NO GaiN.
time flies even faster than rocket in the game. we like gonna finish our 5years life in like an hour(sumwhere there). gotta find job,working,look for foods,clothes,transport etc. even needa pay tax! wow. nevertheless look for a life partner and married(it just a game).
life is unfair. though u have high edu but doesn't mean u can find a good job. a master degree become a janitor. sounds funny and unbelievable but this the fact! in the game,i had my diploma. feel like going further to bachelor or sumthing but nah diploma is enough for me(in the game larh). hahha. so what i got my diploma? no vacancy for me and i just took some part-time job with low salary. the salaries i owe can't afford to buy foods and things lidat. even borrow money from my girls. *thanks girls* feel like giving up at times but then i thanks Shann for she keep encouraging me to look for a better job. *she company all the way all my life in the game* of course in real life as well larh. we're in the same community marh. hahha;)

Shann and Raez

so what happened i went to this place - City Hall interviewed for a better job with at least better salary. i supposed to be a city worker. salary not very high;better than the first. i was thought is okie. but who knows this mayor suddenly ask can i be a typist? can i start my work now? cause they need sumone's help. and yea of course no problem i answered her. hahha. from here,my life changed. high salary some more got benefits,easy and relax job,collect tax that's my job. hahha. and im getting richer;) i have a damn GREAT boss - Siow Ching. LOVE YOU!! and a cool+funny+lil friendly substituted boss - Joshua! the boss who forced me to go gambling(not encourage in real life but the GAME).. go toilet.. go buy things.. some more call me WoRkAhoLiC. woi! great time working there though ;p

Raez and Siow Ching

Raez and Joshua

come to this interesting part,i supposed to marry with this cute man. hahha. not to mention name. but erm maybe people getting older so there's more people getting marry. the registrar FULL of peoples larh. some more needa take wedding photo. aiks. these 2 places got the fullest of peoples lining up. when try to queue but time ends. gonna do stupid life check where u will lost ur life(die) for non reason because u got dice 2 same number. some even minus ur prestige and increase age. really scary! after life check another 5years start. damn tired larh. that's the reason why we couldn't get registrar and we are the so call husband and wife. hahha. that is funny but interesting enough.

almost the end of part of game,some changes from the organizer. (Life Game has lots of surprises huh). satan attack the citizen, persecutions,judgement of the day,hell and heaven. is a long story to tell but learned alot. at least we get to know in what kinda situations how satan attack people.. what shall we do when comes persecutions.. what is the judgement of the day.. what is the great rewards.. hell and heaven.. hahha. most touchable part in the whole game. but of course there's sharing by Pastor John. i guess this is the only camp make me cry the most aight. not because of...hahha...whatever u think but i cried because i touched by God really deep inside my heart. i'd take up all my courages and guts kneel down in front of many,repent to God. at the moment i cry like a baby. even worse i guess. hahha. but who cares? is the tears of precious.. the tears of knowledge.. the tears of honesty.. im renewed in the game. and im glad with it! erm though i lost sumthing(not a material) really precious and dearly which im really hurt during this Life Game but i received double blessings and double rewards from the ONE above me. as He said "if u try to keep ur life for urself , u will lose it ; but if u give up ur life for ME , u will find true life" and now i know where should i go and what should i do. i have a purpose for my life!

i bring an offering of worship to my King , no one on earth deserves the praises that i sing , Jesus may u receive the honor that You're due , O Lord i bring an offering to You.

Jesus , lover of my soul. Jesus , i will never let You go. You've taken me from the miry clay , set my feet upon the rock and now i know. i love You , i need You , though my world may fall i'll never let You go. my Saviour , my closest Friend , i will worship You untill the very end.

oh yea,after this student camp Michelle going back to Russia continue her study. all the best there girl;)

Raez and Michelle

and we are grateful that there's 4 brothers from Hope S'pore Youth joined u for the camp. hope they enjoy:)

Flu Vaccine @ the Homes

2007-08-27T17:21:00.000+08:00

suppose to post this yesterday but erm....toO tired so i post it today. anyway.
most people know sunday im sure going to church and all. yea,im going to church as usual. yesterday was meaningful to me where we did a special service and gave free flu vaccines to some Nursing homes and orphanage. to save time,after service my youth had lunch at the opposite restaurant and had our evaluation there since we hafta meet Pst.Willie at 2.15pm.
after meeting Pst.Willie and all we went down gather with the indo group while waiting the rest. nah im not that kinda type of person who like children that much. (had some scary experienced/memories with CHILDREN) but i still take up my courage to go since it's MEANINGFUL ;p
when we reached shelter house,we heard the children' shoutings. i told my girls gosh i gonna faint man.. but fine! we carry things in..set up everything..and get ready. i got an opportunity to help out a pretty sista;sista Sue Ee/Michelle since i hope to know her better! but gonna call her doctor soon aight. hehhe=) what i hafta to do was i hafta put on the plaster for them after she gave injection. though it just a short time but nice working out with her;)
after finished giving flu vaccines,we clean up the table and prepared refreshment for them. me and my girls were sitting aside chatting. kinda bored. here the most scary part for me o.O the children are toO friendly and active. i got shocked from them quite some times. they blew the balloons(that's normal)but they burst it then(oh gosh!) nah that's the reason why they're scary to me. got bully by them. sigh..
but one thing i learned from them they are so caring. they take care of one another no matter u are different race or not. the one thing impacted me the most was this little courteous indian girl. she thanks everyone of us who came visit them. that's touched:)

oh.. hahha.. there was this bro,bro HanSon(so call hand some) surprised me. since i know him for almost a year didn't know he's a...going-to-be doctor!(if u know him better u'll know why i say so) hahha. how i know him was during last year convention at JB where we had water baptism together. we reborn together! yeah! we got to know each other even better during our usher dinner(we're usher) he fetched me home. nah the way he jab even scary!! =.="

time flies. gotta leave shelter house. before that i went for a photo taking section though not much. heh;) i wondered will Sue Ee reject me if i request to take photo with her but hahha she friendly accepted. memorable:) not forget bout this bro HanSon as well. hahha.
tired after all~

RaeZ and Sue Ee

RaeZ and HanSon

A Particular Friend of Mine ; A Particular Brother in Christ

2007-08-23T14:58:00.000+08:00

recently i got to know this particular bro which he's serving in Hope church located in a part of the miaw-miaw city. that's quite far for me lo. how we know each other is through the adding in friendster. since we know we're serving the same church(Hope Of God),we started to have conversations and slowly we added up in msn chatting online.
we have a quite big different of our age but nah age is not a problem aight. i couldn't deny he's a very nice guy not because he's nice chatting with. (i have my reason WHY) we able to share everything (even secrets) together with an open heart. which mean no secretive larh. all the conversations we enjoy talking bout 'sumone'. hahha.. the most important where he'd actually shared God's word to me at times and i got encouraged. hehhe. i received loads from him;) i guess he himself dunno bout it as well aight. no stress chatting with him and the same time i can be myself. especially he speaks a lots of hilarious words and telling all jokes. hahha. hey, no offense k.
there's ONE thing am jealous with him : his collections. he's a guitar lover and he own a studio. GREAT right?! im wondering so GOOD if i have these MUCH guitars and i know is impossible. it'll be possible when im dreaming larh. at this point and if U are reading this,u should know urself well enough ya. no mention. hahha. there's one day i requested i wanna learn this song which using plucking. nah,my plucking ain't good aight. and wow,he teach me online. so touching right?! the most touchable thing he does was he worried that i couldn't get what he'd taught,he recorded a video..uploaded it..send it to me..just to show me the way of plucking=) i become speechless then because i know if i was him,i will not do that.
oh,im reminded. there's another day which is a few days before Friendship Day my youth organized. im a kinda quiet and NOT a public speaking person. im not that quiet only when am closed with u larh. so what happen is,im holding a kinda important role for that day : chairperson. oh gosh,im the CHAIRPERSON? u want me to speak loud to the audience? are u kidding? or u better kill me! im so down and nervous. is my first time doing such thing in such important event. for what i know there'll be more people coming compare to my cg. and im unfamiliar with the people lerh. hahha. this bro keep encourage me not to worried and keeping me in prayer. the next day he call me up. hahha. im surprised to receive his call. he call me from far apart - miaw-miaw city. i couldn't imagine how much he spend the credits calling me aight. okie,back to the point. he teach me what to do and how to do on the phone.(he has a sweet and nice voice;p) at the same time actually he's having 'sumthing' which is sad to mention. ow... im so sorry...
in a short of period had already so much things happened. what if for the so on months and years?! through all these,our friendship(for worldly),our relationship(in Christ) getting closer with one another. it seems to be we've know each other been in ages. im so blessed to have known this bro in Christ which like my big bro. nah he's my petbro;) can't wait till that day where we can meet up in the month of dec,MNC 2007. but that time i really needa thanks him face to face.
i appreciate and thanks this bro for what he has done for me. all he had done will glow in my memory. is not easy for me to forget though i've STML(short-term-memory-lost). even though if i got accident and knock my head all my memories gone still i'll not forget;) nah not to say im bias or sumthing larh but different people will have different impact of ur life right? but still the rest i appreciate ya'll a lot as well though.

God bless bro..

HealinG!!

2007-08-19T23:34:00.000+08:00

for those who know what's going on with ME, do still remember what i told ya'll? going for 3rd check up and hope the result turns out 30 and so and so??? i went for my 3rd medical check up and had took my report. guess what?? it's a GREAT news!! i was like WOW! it doesn't turns out 31 nor 29 but exactly 30!! nah,i skipped taking medi lots of time k.. so it's the POWER of PRAYER! praise the living GOD!! time to REJOICE really. im now fully healed but nah,hafta take care still. one GREAT thing:i don't needa take any medi anymore!! im SAVED from the DEATH.. pHiEw... thanks all of yall people who always encourage me.. keeping me in prayer.. walk beside me.. and help me through out circumstances.. don't know what i would done without ya'll with me.. THANKS&APPRECIATE!! through all these tough times,i learned a lot and experienced a lot.. how to rely on God more;to have faith in Him for what He has promised;how to walk by faith;seek first His kingdom;pray hard;stand firm in His presence no matter what. i think i grew a bit more mature and spiritually?!?!?? this the way how God mould me.. and now i know He's always there for me whenever whatever however. im totally released and im RELEASED!! my shoulder so light right now.. you know why? cause i have NO more burdens... can feel the JOY in me? hahh... oh c'mon,im kinda excited now.. words can only go this far.. will update more sooner;)

nonsense

2007-08-16T22:31:00.000+08:00

recently im that BUSY. gosh,can't breath at the moment..
many things to do.. many things to think.. many things to settle.. many things to...whatever lah.. especially at the moment am not really feeling well is damn TIRED!gonna song lead this saturday but im having sore throat..
oh God,are u kidding with me? why must at this moment?? hmm.. think im going insane now aight..
while others busy with their trials and am busy with all nonsense.. hahha.. not really nonsense lah actually.. just sumthing which am not willing to do so i think that's nonsense. lol.
at this point,sumone is in my mind..this 'sumone' had messed up my mind. sigh.. i keep trying my very best to STOP thinking of this 'sumone' but i guess i'd failed to do so. 'sumone' make me lost my direction.. i was thinking why must i toO care bout this 'sumone'? guess 'sumone' had a very important role in my life right now. hmm.. i can't do anything lah.. God's plan maybe..
of course not forget bout my dear dear MOON! she's having her.....trials??sooner so i really wanna add some oil for her. by praying? by sending encouraging message? by sending sweet comments? heh.. dunno wor~ anyway,i wish she'll done it with flying colors,do her best and no regrets. "dear,im here to support you always ya..luv ya.." ahem* im not lesbian or sumthing but she is just a very very important person in my life k.. so.. hahha..
i gonna stop crapping till here then.. crap for the next post when am free aight..

Understand

2007-07-25T18:12:00.000+08:00

I wish you could understand my silence.
I wish you could comprehend my solitude.
I wish you would believe me when i tell you i'm not alone here!

God is with me all the time.
He fills my days, here on earth that i have to endure, with laughter and joy.
We have conversations like two old friends!
He is truly my best friend.

When i cry he catches my tears!
He holds me and takes away the hurt!
Surely now after all i've told you;

You will understand!
I am never alone.
For God is always with me!

A Lesson In Life

2007-07-24T23:49:00.000+08:00

everything happen for a reason.nothing happen by chance or by means of good or bad luck.illness,injury,love,lost moment of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limit of your soul.without these small tests,if they be events,illnesses or relationships,life would be like a smoothly pave,straight,flat road to no where.

if someone hurts you,betrays you or breaks your heart,forgive them.for they have helped you learnt about trust and the importance of being cautious to who you open your heart to.

if someone loves you,love them unconditionally.not only because they love you,but they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes to things you would have never seen or felt without them.

make every day count.appreciate every moment and take from everything you possibly can,for you may never be able to experience it again.

talk to people you have never talk to before and actually listen.hold your head up because you have every right to.tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself.for if you don't believe in yourself,no one else will believe in you either.

you can make your life anything you wish.create your own life and then go out and live it.

Inner and Outer

2007-07-24T23:35:00.001+08:00

sometimes and somehow from top to toe

the word 'friend' seems like 'foe'

it's definitely irritating

for those who speak without thinking

try to look in every aspect

that will improve your inner respect

when friendship is shout to start

never breaks someone's heart.

for you to respect the others

respecting yourself should be the first

a simple 'thank you' that is given sincerely

wouldn't turn your day gloomy.

The Reason Why

2007-07-24T23:33:00.000+08:00

All my emotions still need time to heal,

Sorrow of any kind just weakens the will,

Hope is the only word that beats so strong in me,

Having Him in my life is where I want to be,

I cannot find the reason why I went through this,

His plans were not something I could reason with.

All the dreams I had so long ago become reality,

When i trusted Him with my destiny,

He was the only friend who did not blame me,

And He said all those mistakes He did not see,

Time has healed my memory and I am free again,

Faithful as He is I know I can win.

A Special Place

2007-07-23T15:38:00.000+08:00

There is a special place i know,
When i am troubled i can go,
In total silence i can rejoice,
As i await his still soft voice.

With words of love upon my ear,
I know my God is always near,
The blessed comfort that He brings,
My soul restored my glad heart sings.

With peace of mind i humbly pray,
For loving guidance each new day,
To have God's help i always know,
I have my special place to go.

What joy to now that God is there,
To leave our burdens in his care,
We all can have His loving grace,
You'll find Him in your special place.